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Do you ever feel super self-conscious? Do you ever just wish you were like those

individuals, and we all know them that just shine with confidence wherever they

are? Well today, in this video, I am talking all about how to improve and

increase your self-esteem. Hi I'm Abbi J, I'm the founder of AJ life hacks and

this channel is all about self-development. So if you haven't

already think about hitting that subscribe button in the corner and

following some of these videos on how you can improve your self-esteem. So

let's get going with these 4 tips that I have you for increasing and improving

your self-esteem starting to day.

The first tip that I have for you when it

comes to improving your self-esteem, is to write a list of why you are awesome.

Yes I literally mean take out a pen and paper and write a list of why you are

awesome. It sounds a little ridiculous. I get that but this list is so critical

because when we're having a great day we have awesome self-esteem right but it's

in those low moments that we just feel like I'm not go at anything. I can't do

this. I I don't even like the way my hair looks or my outfit. That is when you need

to pull out this list and be reminded of all the amazing things that you've done

or amazing qualities that you already have. Because whether or not you're

having a good self-esteem or bad self-esteem day those underlying facts

of why you like yourself, of what makes you who you are,

that doesn't change and so you just need a reminder. And so this list literally is,

"I am awesome because" and at first it's gonna say "I'm awesome because I'm alive.

I'm awesome because I have red hair." Very generic but then as you start to think

about this more and get more involved you are gonna start to realize that hey

you are pretty amazing and this list is so much fun. My second tip for you when

it comes to improving your self-esteem is to use positive

affirmations. Yes I want you to stand in the mirror and say to yourself, "I love

myself. I love my life." And use some of those affirmations that you've all heard

from all these wonderful positive thinkers and life coaches out there. Why

this is so important is because we don't need help remembering all those

negative thoughts about ourselves, but we do need to give our mind those

positive thoughts and we need to front-load it first thing in our day

because it's easy to sit there and say to yourself, "oh my gosh I'm so stupid." but

we don't naturally have the inclination to say to ourselves, "hey I love who I am!

Hey it's okay. I'll try again tomorrow" And so we need to prime the pump as they

say and get some of those positive thoughts and vibes out there first thing

in the morning. So come up with some positive affirmations that you like I

love, "I love myself. I can do all things through Christ." Those are two

affirmations I say to myself every day and they just fuel me through the day. So

find out what it is that is going to make you feel your absolute best. My

third tip for you when improving your self-esteem is to understand that it's

okay to be working on yourself and still like yourself. Sometimes in life we feel

like well there's so many things that I want to improve. I want to lose weight. I

want to be more fashionable. I want to be more kind. I want to be more social. And

all those are amazing goals but we tend to think that because we have these

things that we want to change, our to-do list for our personal development, that

means we can't like who we are right now. That I can't like the Abbi I am today

because it's not the Abbi I want to be in the future. That's absolutely not true

and the way to get to your future self even faster is to love who you are right

now and to recognize the things that you do love about yourself. So understand

that yes, you know what? I do want to improve. I do want to be a better person

but I love Who I am right now and I'm figuring it out.

My fourth and last tip for you when it comes to having an amazing self-esteem

that's really healthy and will help you your whole life because you'll feel more

confident in that that reads across in your job, in

friends, across all areas of your life and that tip is to understand that we

all have good self-esteem days we all have bad self-esteem days. I used to

think that there was something wrong with me because one moment I just felt

on top of the world and I feel so beautiful and I just feel so confident

and then the next moment maybe that day I literally hate everything about myself

and feel so self-conscious and so that I can't do anything. Insane, right? Well we

all feel like that, especially as young women, when we're trying to be our best

selves, when we're in those really high-stress peer environments we have

good days and we have bad days. We literally wake up with great hair one

day and we literally wake up with bad hair the next day. It's just it's gonna

happen and so if you understand that you are so normal and that having ebbs and

flows and your self-esteem is normal and healthy. Don't let it faze you. Don't feel

like you have to stay in the dumps or that you aren't improving because you

are and just take it in stride and knowing that helps those bad self-esteem

days just disappear because you realize hey I'm just like everybody else and I'm

gonna shake this off. So there you have it! Those are my top tips for building

your self-esteem and I can't stress enough how important it is to have a

healthy self-esteem and to also understand that having a great

self-esteem is a life long journey. Because it is such a long journey we

need to be kind to ourself and we can always be adding to that list of why

we're awesome and our affirmations that we're saying to ourselves. So there you

are. I hope you enjoyed this video.

Please comment below on maybe some of the tips

that you are going to use or better yet what you love most about yourself. So

thank you for watching this video. I will see you

in the next one. Abbi J out.

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Sri Ramana Maharshi explains the Purpose of Self-Realisation - Duration: 4:17.

what is the purpose of self-realization

self-realization is the final goal and is itself the purpose I mean what use is

it why do we asked about self-realization why don't you rest

content with your present state it is evident that you are discontented and

your discontent will come to an end if you realize the self that question was

seldom asked because those who came to the Maharshi usually understood at least

that the state of spiritual ignorance or as Christianity puts it of fallen man is

undesirable and that self-realization is the supreme goal in the following

dialogue the purpose is asked with more understanding and therefore the answer

also goes deeper

what is the goal of this process

realizing the real what is the nature of reality existence without beginning or

end eternal existence everywhere endless infinite existence underlying all forms

all changes all forces all matter and all spirit the many change and pass away

whereas the one always endures the one displaces the trials such as knower

knowledge and known the trials are only appearances in time and space whereas

the reality lies beyond and behind them they are like a mirage over the reality

they are the results of delusion if I am also an illusion who casts off the

illusion the eye casts of the illusion of eye and yet remains I such is the

paradox of self-realization you realize do not see any contradiction in it it is

surprising how many philosophers intelligence have failed to understand

what is implied by self-realization and have misrepresented and even attacked or

belittled it all that it means as Bhagavad explains in the passage just

quoted is realizing reality realizing what is and reality remains the same

eternal and unchanging whether one realizes it or not one can of course

understand the enemies and frustration of philosophers who wish to grasp

everything with the mind on being told that reality lies beyond and behind the

triad of nor knowledge and known which is like a mirage over it for obviously

the Mirage cannot penetrate to that which underlies it that is why no easy

answer can be given to them indeed Bhagavad didn't on the whole approve all

questions about the meaning and nature of realization because his purpose was

to help the questioner and not to satisfy mental curiosity

he usually reminded people that what is needed is effort to attain

self-knowledge and when that is attained the questions will not arise which part

of this video did you like the most please quote or link to that specific

time in the comment section

you

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Self-confidence is the Fuel of Self-Esteem. - Duration: 2:31.

Hi my love! All right? Today we will talk, again, about self confidence. Because

self-confidence is the driving force behind self-esteem, more or less. If

you can trust yourself, if you are a trustworthy person, you

open the way to get in touch with your essence, to love yourself, to

respect yourself more and more. And often you think this:

what is it to be self-reliant? It's trusting you. Because if you are a person who

lied to you, for example. If you are a person who can not count

on yourself and always put the other first

when you most need, for sure, for you, you are not reliable. So you

do not have self-confidence. It may be until the other can

trust you. But surely you do not trust you. So you're a

fragile person. So you have to cultivate that

self-confidence. This understanding of who I am. And the way I relate to me.

Can I count on myself? And one important thing I want to tell you today is:

you do not even need to know what to do in difficult times,

you need to be there. And often in difficult times you give up. And why

do you leave? Because you start trying to look in the other, the reinforcement

of that moment, the healing of that moment. You begin to tell yourself that

you are no good, no good. That is if you give up at the difficult time.

Can you trust someone who leaves you at a difficult time? And if you say

like this, "Leia, but I do not know what I do at the difficult time."

No problem not knowing, only if you accept it. If possible give

yourself a hug, and say, "It's okay, I'm here," with firmness and authority.

And you begin to develop this incredible thing that is self-confidence. That makes you

admire so many people. The people you admire are

self-reliant. And you too are, it may be, just develop to be also

a person you admire. I am leaving below the link of the course

"How to say no, if to position" that also helps to be self-confident.

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"From a Seedling of Cast-Off Self" — Original Short Story — H.P. Lovecraft Series - Duration: 33:48.

August 9th, 1879 My Dear Minerval Icarus,

I can scarcely permit myself to pick up this pen.

The things which I must relate hereafter will sound such nonsense, fit more for the gibbering

of a masonic mystic than for the ink of your own Illuminated.

But am I so incredulous that I must take on the burden of a madman?

Shall I begin after but one doubtful night to question my own faculties?

I think I will not.

There is scrutiny that must be paid here, but I have none for that which masquerades

as the supernatural.

I shall therefore grant what my eyes have seen and what my ears have heard, and turn

all question instead upon the foundation of these happenings.

I have spoken to you of Adam Weishaupt, have I not?

If you have bothered to read the texts I have sent you, you will understand his role as

the father of our great work.

It was he who first discerned the wisdom of self-perfection for the perfection of all

man, and he who first established so many of our guiding philosophies in those early

infant years of our order.

And in secret, it was he and his fellows who contrived the erosion of that diseased hegemony

of religious and political institution which so threatens the free-thinking mind.

My esteem for the man is great, make you no mistake.

Have I not been here for the greater part of these two years, my young prot�g�,

teaching you in the revival of the organization he himself founded?

But all great feats granted, he was only as you and I: a man.

This premise, for one cruel evening, was sorely tested.

A lesser mind-or perhaps more rightly, one more prone to fits of dubious faith or fancy-would

surely call what I experienced a "visitation".

I will not.

I will only relate the events in their order.

As I was retiring to bed this past evening, a man appeared to me in the door of my chamber.

He came swaddled in the black of a funeral robe, wearing on his face the gray death mask

of Adam Weishaupt.

My first impulse, of course, was to react as prey trapped before a predator.

You will imagine I was quite caught off my guard.

But I will do away with the garrulous descriptions of the sweat on my brow and the beating of

my heart, for they soon enough vanished.

It was discourse alone that he sought.

Such a strange fellow with such strange intonation and so strange ideas, what was I to do but

entertain?

Our conversation lasted far into the small hours of the morning.

When at length he departed, although I am loathe to admit, I found myself entirely perplexed.

My doctorate and all my many years at T�rbingen were as nothing to him.

He spoke of modern chemistry and psychology the way an artist speaks of the hues of a

painting, as if all reality were mutable and subjective.

He spoke too of philosophy, and of the perfectibility of man.

He spoke, and fairly ensorcelled although understanding precious little, I did listen.

I am left here now with the scattering of notes he bade me take and the ghosts of his

abstractions reverberating throughout my mind.

I will not play at the fantasy that this could indeed be a final message from Weishaupt himself,

fifty years beyond the pall of death.

I know only that my curiosity is piqued, and the thin strata of my intellectual pride thoroughly

eroded.

For all my lacking comprehension, I sense some truth in these notes.

I wish to know better what it is he meant to convey by visiting me.

If you'll have it, I will share my progress with you.

I know the Areopagus would make such noise of this, but I have trust in the confidence

of master and pupil.

Will you join me on this frivolous foray, Icarus?

Write me with all haste!

-Daedelus

-

The mountains began to slow, and then to crawl.

The life at last went out of them and they were again an oil painting mounted in the

window of a sleeper car.

Nathaniel's head jerked with the halting momentum of the train.

Like waking, he felt himself return to his own skin.

He clenched and unclenched his tingling hands.

He couldn't tell whether his mouth was numb or dry, but was either way unhappy to be aware

of the sensation.

The hours between Canterbury and Eisenach had passed in a blur of internal exploration.

Instead of drowning under the tide of anxious dread, he'd devoted his attention to the new

breadth of his mind.

He felt it, reaching hungrily to correlate all it now knew with all that was.

Here was the Rennsteig boundary path, nestled into the Thuringian Forest.

Here was the winding shape of the Werra, cutting a silver line through the trees.

Here were a thousand words of a language he'd learned over the course of a single weekend

in preparation for the trip, spilling out under his breath.

A cursory riffle through a stack of textbooks had been enough to prime him, and the rest

had come as naturally as resurfacing memories.

It was good to have his thoughts away from the sleeplessness, and the waning appetite,

and the slow loss of sensation throughout his body.

Good to think of all the chemical had done for him so far.

He touched the final preparation through the fabric of his breast pocket.

Had it been like the others, he'd have downed it in an instant, trusting the effect to resolve

his developing condition.

All would have been well.

He ran his fingers over the shape of the needle's rubber covering.

Why a syringe, now?

Why all these unforetold symptoms?

And why, why was there no response?

He swallowed back the questions, grimaced, and began to gather his things.

As he made his way to the platform, struggling with valise and trunk against the new weakness

in his limbs, he felt a tapping at his elbow.

He looked, and saw the familiar, rotund face of Minerval Pliny.

The man was wearing an olive ditto suit and bowler.

He smiled with theatric politeness from behind his walrus 'stache.

"Begging your pardon, sir," he began in broken English.

When he saw that Nathaniel's eyes were on him, he aimed a thick finger at Nathaniel's

chest.

"If I might, I am noticing your lovely brooch and am wondering if you might tell me, what

is the species of this bird?"

Nathaniel followed the finger with his eyes to the silver pin in his lapel.

It was made to look like an old Greek Dekadrachm coin, tiny owl staring out with its wide eyes

from the center.

He'd forgotten he'd been wearing the thing.

He huffed through his nose tolerantly and gave Pliny a smile that he hoped wasn't condescending.

"It is no trouble, good fellow," he said in perfect, if not perfectly fluid, German.

"That would be the Athene Noctua, a rather small species from out of certain parts of

Asia and Continental Europe.

We hope soon to see it in Britain as well."

For a moment the pretense of the stilted dialogue fell away.

Pliny stared at him, eyebrows knit together in confusion.

The last time they'd seen each other was a little more than a year ago at the Revival

Conference in Bavaria.

He'd been Nathaniel's host then, and in a limited capacity, his translator.

Now the same dim boy stood before him, speaking the language with grammar that was likely

better than his own.

Nathaniel suppressed a grin.

The shorter man caught himself chewing the corner of his own mustache, deep in thought.

He spat it out and said in German, "Wonderful!

I take it you are also a lover of birds?

Shall I help you with your things and we talk about it at length?"

Gratefully, Nathaniel passed the trunk handle to him.

Although the station was near empty, they continued their performance all the way to

the coach, speaking of ornithology and birdwatching and other small things neither of them shared

any interest in.

Were it anyone else, Nathaniel would have tried to do away with the fa�ade.

He was tired, and didn't want to think of scripts and protocols.

But he knew that Pliny was a good Minerval, and would never suffer such sloppiness.

So he humored his friend, and pretended not to know him until the coach doors were closed

and the horses were clip-clopping down the road.

"Thank you, Berend," he said at last, slouching into the old upholstery.

"It was a taxing journey."

Berend didn't respond at first.

He was busy peeking out through the blinds, as if all the world were suspicious of them.

When he seemed satisfied that they were well and truly alone, he reclined into the opposite

seat and looked at Nathaniel.

He did not smile in his usual way, but with something timid, equal parts caution and curiosity.

His eyes seemed to glitter with questions in the dark.

"You," he said slowly, "have changed.

I see it well enough in your countenance, to speak nothing of your language.

It would not be proper of me to ask, but I will not lie and tell you that I am not positively

itching to."

Berend cast a glance at the front wall of the coach, as if the driver would either hear

or care about anything he had to say.

He leaned forward confidentially, dropping his voice to a whisper.

"What is all this business of sudden change?

What is so urgent that you must break tradition and go hunting for your mentor when you are

well to know nothing of him, hm?"

Nathaniel met his gaze.

He was a good man to prepare so much so quickly, and a good friend to do it with so little

explanation.

In an instant Nathaniel collected in his mind the events of the last month-the strange letters,

the rush of new fascination, the parade of chemicals, the growing spaciousness of his

mind-and knew that as much as he might wish to, he could say nothing.

The great irony in the secret Illuminati Rinascita was that word travelled.

And for all his stringency in the following of protocols, Berend was no closed book.

If Nathaniel spoke now, every chapter from Bavaria to London would be crying alchemy

and mystification within a fortnight.

He would be the next Adolph Freiherr Knigge.

"I won't deprive you your answers, but for now I beg patience.

My Daedelus is possessed of a jealous brilliance.

I cannot in good conscience unveil what he has confided in me, but I do believe him to

be on the brink of something with the potential to alter the way we perceive the perfectibility

of man.

Am I not proof of this?"

The regard of Berend's eyes changed as he looked at Nathaniel then, although whether

they changed to skepticism or to grim seriousness he could not tell.

He went on.

"Now, at the xenith of his study, he falls silent?

I would be a poor Minerval not to distress."

"Ah," said Berend, twisting his mustache between sausage-shaped fingers, "yes, I agree it is

a severe thing for one of our Illuminated to vanish from his Minerval.

But, Nathaniel, it would have been prudent-nay, proper of you!-to leave the matter in the

hands of your peers!

Why not simply let us find him on our own and write to you of his condition?

Anonymity of master to prot�g� is paramount to illumination!

This doctrine should not be a revelation to you."

Nathaniel pinched the bridge of his nose between a forefinger and thumb.

His temples were beginning to throb, vision to swim as with a migraine.

The pins and needles had moved from his fingertips to his palms, leaving them cold and sensationless.

He itched for the syringe in his breast pocket, but instead closed his eyes, and thought of

how soon he would once again be under the guidance of his mentor.

"Have faith," he said, with a tired sigh.

"As I said, there will be answers, but no sooner than I am able to speak with Daedelus

myself."

Berend frowned and crossed his arms.

He nodded.

"Fine enough.

I will trust your judgement.

We will arrive in little more than an hour to Weimar to speak with an associate who has,

so they say, dealt with your Daedelus no more than a week ago."

His tone softened, and he gave Nathaniel a pat on the knee.

"For now, it seems to me that you must rest.

You have the look a drowned dog."

Sleep.

He smirked at the naivety of the suggestion, but closed his eyes anyway, and at least tried

to pretend such a thing was possible.

-

September 2nd, 1879 Icarus,

I hope you will forgive me some exuberance in the writing of this letter.

There are but a precious handful of great epiphanies a man comes to in his life.

I believe now, in the wake of my strange visitor some weeks prior, I have experienced one such

revelation.

How I will begin to explain this to you, I do not yet know.

But my pen has already committed ink to paper, and there is little time for articulation.

I suppose I shall put what words occur to me in sequence, and hope that they will translate

to something meaningful when I am done.

It has always been our admission within the Order that a man is a thing of limited ken.

You may know the words of Weishaupt: "In the stage of manhood alone does the human race

first appear in his dignity; only there are his principles fixed, his connections appropriate,

he sees the full circumference of his sphere; there alone-after we have learned through

many detours, through long, repeated, sad experiences, what a calamity it is to arrogate

the rights of others, to raise oneself over others through mere external advantages, to

use his size to the detriment of others-there one recognizes, believes, feels what an honor,

what a joy it is to be a human being."

These were his words, and this much we all grant: a man's goodness exists only in proportion

to his role on the stage of mankind.

But how can we ever fulfill our role if we know not the performance?

Even within the order, it is politics and alignments and bickering philosophy.

We are ever divided by our lack of vision, and thus must perfectibility evade our grasp.

This sounds like so much poetry and speculation, but it was the intention of the man in the

mask to show me otherwise.

I see that now.

I could not fathom the proposition at the time, so lost was I beneath the impenetrable

speak of substances and the stricture of application.

Now, after more than a week of toil, I have lain out the breadth of it before me in paper

and ink, and I see clearly what he meant to say.

I expect it would be impossible to describe to someone of your learning the precise mechanism

behind the process, but in the plainest possible terms you might call it the replication of

a thought.

Upon consumption of the chemical, the body is seized first by the physiological product

of the thought, and the mind extrapolates immediately backward to discover its psychological

source.

It has so far been impossible for me to make any meaningful correlations between the specifics

of my new ease of learning and the exact preparation these instructions have allowed me to create.

The end result is something like a general broadening of the individual's aptitudes through

a clandestine series of grafts patterned after the experiences of an unknown donor.

Oh, Icarus, I am sorry.

Any attempt to render this madness comprehensible is doomed from the start.

Suffice it to say, I feel we have all this time been standing at the foot of the gate,

and only now have we been given a key.

I am sorely tempted to grant that the man was Weishaupt himself, not returned from death,

but from an expedition to that unknown place beyond the wall of our meager ken.

Suppose we follow, and find what we will?

Perhaps this is indeed the final step before the threshold of perfect unity we have for

so long sought to procure for our kind.

I do not yet know.

I am only so much better for having tried.

Already I feel my own mind flourishing like a tree beneath the hands of a good husbandman.

I would be glad to share it with you.

Expect a preparation of your own in the post.

I will await your response.

Yours with all eagerness,

-Daedelus

-

The darkness moved behind Nathaniel's eyelids.

It was alive with silhouetted lines that seemed to drift to and fro, shadows cast over shadows.

They'd first appeared weeks ago, as benign then as the tiny white spots and lines one

sees when they peer up at a clear blue sky.

He'd taken them as an artifact of his burgeoning perspective, and they hadn't troubled him.

But the days had passed, and night after restless night he'd watched as the dark static coalesced

into something too distinct not to notice every time he closed his eyes.

Rest became the sole product of sheer exhaustion, and when he dreamt, the lines were umbral

pathways leading to countless open doors.

Beyond each of them, the same strange vista he could never quite recall in waking.

However tired he felt, he knew sleep wouldn't come.

He sat awake for the better part of an hour with his lids shut, watching the bizarre spectacle

play out behind them.

As he stared, he began to notice something in the obscurity.

There was an odd sense of depth to it all.

Some of the dark tendrils were nearer and larger than others, some so far distant that

they blended into the red-black canvas of his flesh.

One of them looked almost like one of the pathways from his dreams, stretching out from

beneath him.

It curved up and away from the bottom of his field of view, shrinking into the distance

to join the innumerable, shifting tapestry beyond.

He felt himself lean forward to follow, but then there was something hard on his shoulder,

and he jolted to a halt.

"Good lord, man!"

One of Berend's big hands closed around his shoulder and hefted him backward against the

seat.

"Are you trying to concuss yourself, taking a dive into the bench like that?"

Nathaniel barely heard him.

Barely saw him.

When he opened his eyes, there, somehow visible beneath all the layers of substance that made

up reality, was the faintest impression of a shadow.

It was a single, great, silhouetted line, drawn between him and something far away.

He could still see it, even with his eyes open.

The look on his face must have been madness, because Berend jerked his hand away from Nathaniel's

shoulder as if it were a hot burner, and fell silent for several long seconds.

"Nathaniel," he said at length, voice soft with concern.

He tried for a moment to see what had Nathaniel so transfixed.

Seeming to see nothing, he grunted, removed his bowler, and began nervously to slick back

his island of thinning hair.

"You... do not look well, my friend.

In fact, I might say you look the poorest I've seen a man outside of hospital.

It may be wise to forego the meeting this evening and instead get you in front of a

physician, hm?"

Nathaniel continued to look through him at the new shadow beneath reality.

His headache seemed to bleed into it, lancing sharply through his neck and temples, emanating

outward through his throbbing eyes in a way he couldn't fathom.

The pain streamed out along the dark path like an electric current through a lightning

rod.

He felt it outside of himself, radiating to new and different places miles away.

A new revelation came to him, then.

He knew it as well as he knew the warmth of his own breath, the location of his fingertips.

The path lead to Daedelus.

He blinked, as if that might make the shadow disappear for long enough to find some clarity

of thought.

The vision only intensified.

Closing his eyes was like draping a navigational map over a landscape.

With each passing moment he felt more and more of this dark network, laced into the

fabric of all that was.

He inhaled slowly, trying to fight back the anxious heat rising into his cheeks.

It was difficult to focus on anything with this new visual obstruction beneath it all,

but he looked at Berend.

"He is in Gotha."

Berend's face scrunched up, skeptical.

He was quiet for a moment.

"Do you mean Daedelus?"

Nathaniel nodded.

"How can you know something like that?

You were begging for help to track the man down not one week ago!"

Nathaniel looked into Berend's dark eyes with the last shreds of his concentration.

He thought his fist might be clutching the fabric of Berend's sleeve, but he wasn't sure.

Most of the feeling had gone out of his extremities over the course of the last hour.

"Please, trust me.

You will have answers, but for now, trust me.

Trust me."

Berend stared back at him, fierce for a moment.

And then his resolve looked to break, and his expression deflated into one of pity.

He laced his fingers together and placed them over his mouth, deep in thought.

"That is more than six hours ride.

I am in earnest when I say that I do not know how you will endure the journey.

But if you must go now, I will take you."

Nathaniel opened his mouth to speak, but Berend held up a finger.

"My condition is that we see to your condition no later than you see in the flesh your Daedelus.

You may give your greeting, but then I take you to the nearest hospital."

Nathaniel only nodded vacantly, and watched Berend climb out of the carriage to speak

with the driver.

There was the sound of muffled bickering, but it was so far blurred into the inconsequential

stimulus of his senses that he hardly noticed.

Trembling and numb, his fingers fumbled with his breast pocket to withdraw the preparation.

Looking at it now, the substance in the chamber had a strange quality he had never before

noticed.

It was like a shadow, no depth or dimension, falling against the chamber only opposite

the light.

Still, it rippled and sloshed about when he moved it like any ordinary liquid.

He looked at the darkening shadow path, extending away from him into the distance.

There were the ghostly impressions of others now as well, crisscrossing madly in every

direction.

If he closed his eyelids, he knew he would see them all with perfect clarity.

Six hours.

Only six hours until Daedelus could fix him, or at least put right his broken mind.

He pressed the tip of the needle to the inside of his elbow.

-

September 29th, 1879 It was foolishness to spend precious time

writing out the date.

It is foolishness for me to be writing anything other than the principle matter of this letter.

Pardon me.

It is a great effort to focus my hand, much less my mind.

The whole of reality has become to me a stimulus which I cannot resist.

However, for your sake, I must for a moment attempt to reduce the aperture of my vision.

I will try.

I apologize in advance if pieces of this letter become inscrutable.

Icarus, by the time this finds you I will have summited the high peak of our expedition.

Already I feel the winds of rapid ascent lapping at my limbs and my face.

You must feel the beginnings of it as well.

I cannot offer you courage, only promise that what you endure-what I endure-must surely

be worthy.

I have seen now the truth of man.

We are but fragments of one grand intelligence, fractured and locked away in the fragile prison

cells of ordered nature.

The great perfection of united purpose we have for so long sought after is only the

dream of a mind which longs to be whole.

Humanity is the barrier to its own perfection, and so we make our exodus.

I am sorry.

It is so much to hold this pen between fingers that seem no longer to be there at all; to

reduce myself to something which can see the necessity of such things as a written letter.

I can abide no longer.

I must finish my ascent.

I leave you here with not only an open gate, but a path to follow.

Be brave, Icarus.

Rejoice.

-Daedelus

-

Nathaniel knew the place before they arrived.

It surfaced like a forgotten memory from the back of his mind.

There, he recalled the procession of white ornaments along the roof's frontispiece, the

Corinthian half-columns built into the siding, the faux-marble bas reliefs capping each door.

The years had worn them all from their rococo splendor to the black-streaked relics of a

time since passed.

The last home of Adam Weishaupt.

His shadow-path crawled irreverently beyond the overgrown dooryard and upward through

the innards of the house.

Amid the churnings of the million other dark channels that had since come to overcrowd

his vision, there was no seeing where it lead.

He didn't care.

The pain in his head was blossoming into a confluence of all the world's anguish, centered

somewhere behind his eyes.

Relief was only several dozen footsteps away.

He tried to stand and throw open the door, but couldn't quite tell what he was doing

with his numb limbs and collided fruitlessly against the inside wall of the coach.

His body was rapidly turning into a useless anchor of flesh and bone.

Berend heard the ruckus and startled awake.

"The devil?"

He shouted, looking bleary-eyed up at Nathaniel.

Upon meeting Nathaniel's gaze, his tired indignation melted instantly into an expression of gaping

horror.

His eyes flicked about, as if unsure which precise part of Nathaniel's head to stare

at.

Nathaniel only paid him a glance, and then continued to scrabble in weak desperation

against the door.

When he finally found purchase and it came open, his momentum sent him stumbling ungracefully

onto his hands and knees on the gravel outside.

He thought one of his legs and several of his fingers might have twisted strangely beneath

him as he rose to his feet, but there was no sensation in them and no time to worry.

The door was open, waiting for him at the end of the walk.

He hobbled toward it as if were the only thing his body had ever been meant for.

"But... your head," he heard Berend stammering somewhere behind him, "Nathaniel, wait!

Your head!

You need a surgeon, right this moment!

You... you need a priest!"

He continued to shout, but never left the carriage.

Whatever he was trying to say, it was not enough to compel him to follow.

As Nathaniel crossed the threshold, he noticed that the dark path curled through the architecture

in such a way that he couldn't follow.

He cast his eyes about the place.

Vaguely, above the field of twisting darkness, he began to recognize his surroundings.

Here was the parlor, and the familiar hydrangea-embroidered couch he'd dozed on during so many long nights

riddling out the particularities of his suspicions.

Here was the library, and the piles of strange texts he'd hoped would shed some light on

his visitor's cryptic guidance.

Here was the cellar, where under the absent instruction of a staring clay mask he'd first

learned to distill a thought into something one could hold in a vial.

He stood at the top of the stairwell, leaning heavily against the doorframe.

He couldn't tell whether the memories belonged to him or to someone else.

All was Numbness and pain.

He was become an amalgamate of the two, wrought over with a fever of foreign visions and all

the experiences of a consciousness greater than his own.

The physical, the present, hardly seemed to exist at all anymore.

If he focused very hard, he thought he could see something out of place in the dim light

of the stairwell.

It looked like a system of tender white roots spread out over the walls and the ceiling

and the steps.

They crept slowly across the bricks, the wood, now and then finding one another and melding

with mercurial smoothness before diverging again into a dozen new lines.

As he watched this through his wavering vision, a far-distant part of his mind tried feebly

to tell him something that he could only just hear.

It was as if some final foundering fragment of humanity was rasping out a cry within him.

All the things that did not want to be forgotten gathered in the shade of his fear, begging

him not to go.

A thousand days of waking and sleeping and living for the simple curiosity of the next

day, a hundred thousand words of ambition uttered in hushed tones to his father and

written into the lines of letters to his mentor, countless words and wants left unsaid and

unformed.

Everything that he was and had ever wanted to be rebelled against the blasphemy in the

stairwell.

From this primitive, dwindling bastion of rational thought, there came a pang of truth.

He knew from the pain alone that there would be no return from this expedition.

It was too late for Berend's physician to do whatever he thought he might be able to.

Still, it wasn't too late to turn around all the same.

Better, perhaps, to end the journey knowingly than to forever lose his way home.

He stood silently, feeling the warmth of this last fire.

At last, it winked out, and although he did not feel it, he knew it rolled in a single

cool droplet down his cheek and off his jaw.

He lowered onto his hands and knees, and began to descend.

At the base of the steps, the network of roots congealed into a single shape.

He was entering into a cavern of flesh now, blanketed in gray and glistening tissue.

Just as he'd known the way to the old Weishaupt home, known the shape and the history of the

rooms within, known that he must journey into the cellar, he knew now, even before he saw

the body, that this was Daedelus.

And there, beyond it all, the shadow trail came curling incorporeally through the building,

terminating at last behind the cellar's far wall.

At its end, his dear mentor.

The husk of the man he'd known lay on the floor, as empty and gray as the sloughed exoskeleton

of an insect.

Now Daedelus was something else, blossoming out of his own cleft skull like a giant, gray

flower.

His roots branched from a network of darkness, and from a seedling of cast-off humanity.

His dendritic petals beckoned motionlessly to Nathaniel, and their attention was clarity,

and liberty, and freedom from pain.

His hands and knees could hold his weight no longer.

He rolled onto his back to stare up at his mentor, feeling the ineffable agony climb

to its burning climax behind his eyes.

All the world was slipping away.

He felt himself floating in the vastness of the disordered cosmos, surrounded by the pulsing

axons of the mind Daedelus had become; that he was becoming.

One final vision for Nathaniel, before he was forever lost to the fullness of all time

and knowledge.

He saw it first with his own eyes: a figure, emerging from some place in the cellar, clad

in blackness.

It stared down at him through the death mask of Adam Weishaupt.

"Humanity is the barrier to its own perfection," it said, deep voice resonating impossibly

through ears that no longer worked, "and so you make your exodus."

And then his eyes began to fail, and the figure unfurled into something incomprehensibly vast,

mottled all over with gray pock marks.

It hovered like a gardener among vines, stroking with its many arms the infinitely interwoven

branches of all sentience.

The grey marks were the innumerable remnants of stolen visages, death masks all staring

expressionlessly outward forever.

He knew all of them, but there were only three he truly saw.

There was Weishaupt, and there was one he knew to be Daedelus, and there was one that

had at one point, long ago, belonged to a man named Nathaniel.

And then even the names themselves were swept away on the surging tide of awareness, and

the masks no longer belonged to anyone at all.

Afterword Thus concludes what may have been the single

most taxing story we've created for this show.

If not for our humans, then at least for me personally.

Our goal this time was to do as Lovecraft did when he referenced his own creations,

and use them as the props in a sort of "psychological performance".

I was the unfortunate lab rat for this piece, and there is a lot of me in there.

My fears, my... reservations about what I am, and what I could be.

I'll leave it at that and let you all connect the dots in the comments.

This can be pretty hard stuff for me to talk about at length.

While you're at it, feel free to hazard a guess at which particular symbols and figures

we invoked from the mythos.

You might be surprised.

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Self care that get to effect more than the normal abdominal muscle exercise 大宮 整体 腹筋を効果的にするひと手間セルフケア - Duration: 5:41.

Hi my name is youhei ozaki. Thanks for look this video. This video talk about self care that get to effect more than the normal abdominal muscle exercise.

This self care recommend many people.

At especially,recommend for person that want to be loss weight.

If you do this self care,your muscle that don't using is can to use. Thereby you will get many things.

It is metabolism up,heat up,prevention of low back pain,fat combustion,etc.

Even if do exercise in a state of have stiff muscle,it is not effective.

In reality,there is exercise that you doing unconsciously. It is respiration.

You using abdominal muscle when you breath out.

It is exercise that usually doing. It is used more by deep respiration.

So,to make it easy use to abdominal muscle that you use unconsciously is important.

At especially I want to convey for person that do exercise a lot.

Abdominal muscle training is will be stiff your abdominal. If once abdominal muscle become stiff,it is difficult to soften it.

First of all,I recommend to soften abdominal muscle. thereby,maximum can to use abdominal muscle.

[How to soften abdominal muscle] Diet self care is there is some pattern.

This is one in that. It is do pinch the side of belly button.

Other muscle unlike,belly muscle is there is stiff point other than on bones nearby.

In middle of belly there is muscle end. That place become very stiff.

Of course,to do soften side or back is very important. But,almost people don't soften front.

At especially,I hope to you find to feel the pain point.

If you feel pain when pinch belly mass,there is stiff muscle in that.

Maybe that place is flexibility become decreasing.

If you do keep stiff abdominal muscle,you can't use muscle of part when you did muscle training.

I strongly recommend to do soften abdominal muscle.

Please try it. Thanks for look this video. See you!

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The Effect of Self Transcedent, with Dr. Patty Van Cappellen - Duration: 2:35.

What was interesting too is that this increase in spirituality happened

because there were other changes happening at the same time. So we also

measured other basic core beliefs we have about the world that life is

meaningful that people are benevolent those are like beliefs we carry with us

on a day-to-day basis which there is at least a minimal level that we think okay

this world makes sense and people are not going to hurt me right now so we

wanted to see if those kind of basic beliefs were also changing as a

function. And are you calling that spirituality is that part of the question of how are you

defining spirituality or that more like a baseline like the world is good as a

safe place? yeah I wouldn't say that I think it's it often goes hand in hand

with spirituality but there are many people who wouldn't call themselves

spiritual who find that life is meaningful and that people are

benevolent. So I wouldn't say that those beliefs or spiritual there's like more

basic than that, but they're moving in they're changing also based on self

transcendence emotion so when you just felt all or admiration you will find

that the world is more meaningful and that people are more benevolent. This is

really important work this is really I mean whether you're a very good work

because whether you're very religious and have a community to practice in and

live with and like-minded folks or whether you consider yourself spiritual and

have your own practice or whether you just think oh okay the world is an OK and

kind place. That these self-transcendent positive emotions they

have an impact on all of those you know spaces. Did you also look at self

transcendent positive emotions with people who thought the world might not

be such a benevolent place it might be malevolent? Did it move the negative

emotions yeah more towards... We haven't because our participants were

like participants from the community with a pretty you know not a very low

level at the baseline on those beliefs so

they were starting with you know generally thinking okay life is

meaningful and people are benevolent but that might be interesting like to think

about application among clinical population. Yeah that's something I

haven't done

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Self care that decrease hip joint pain. Myofascial Release Technique 大宮 整体 股関節の痛みを減らすセルフケア - Duration: 7:39.

Hi my name is youhei ozaki. Thanks for look this video. This video talk about self care that decrease hip joint pain.

My customer had the hip joint pain.

・If keep on stand,feel the hip joint pain

・If add the weight in the pain leg and move,feel strongly pain

I convey self care for such a person. This self care is very easy.

At basically,the stiff muscle increase to age by age.

Almost case,become good when take a bath. That case is very simple.

If you decrease stiff muscle,you regain healthy body of past.

Most of the discomfort of the body is improve by become past body. Absolutely,to don't improve is no.

By people,effect is different. But,I think that maybe improve.

This time,the place that I convey is leg. At first,check pain of hip joint.

Some people is feel pain when keep weight in one leg.

In case of left leg feel pain,you will feel strongly pain to when keep weight in left leg.

Or,feel pain when open the hip joint. Please remember check to angle and weight when felt pain.

I think that to stiff muscle is cause.

If you take a bath,your muscle will become soften.

What you have to do is to bring body closer that state.

I recommend to do soften leg finger side. The point is side of little finger.

If anything,it is diagonal point.

Please rub little finger bone. This explanation is hard.

Aim point is bone edge. It is bone corner.

Please do image the cube. Please rub corner of cube. Please rub to like do lose corner.

So,please rub diagonal more than vertical and horizontal. Just like to shake the corner.

It is image that like make octagon. Please pinch with some finger and rub.

Almost people don't feel pain at first. At gradually,you will feel pain.

The place that there is stiff muscle is become feel dull. If your muscle become soften,you will feel pain.

If surface muscle become soften,stiff muscle come out from back.

There is reason that hip joint become good when leg finger do soften.

This is characteristic of "Seitai". This is but also reality.

Most stiff point add major impact in many place. At especially,place that don't moving from usually is important.

It is that only. There is also stiff muscle around hip joint.

But to soften that place is very hard. Because there is stiff muscle in so deep.

To soften finger muscle is very speedy. And there is many achievement that hip joint became soften by that method.

After doing it,please do check first pain. Maybe,your hip joint pain will be decrease.

Please try it. Thanks for look this video. See you!

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Being Greater than Self, with Dr. Patty Van Cappellen - Duration: 3:27.

So Patty, let's begin at the beginning which is defining this thing called self

transcendent positive emotions. Yeah it's a mouthful. So I was interested in those

emotions because as you mentioned my work is revolving around religion and

spirituality and so I started being interested in what I broadly call self

transcendence and the search that people have to kind of be connected to

something bigger than themselves. And self transcendence is this you know

reduce self awareness and sense of connectedness with people around us and

with the world in general. And it seems that some positive emotion, some

uplifting emotions are able to make this self transcendence experience emerge and

that's why they're called self transcendence emotions. So before I go

into the definition let's think about a couple of examples. For example awe is a

self transcendent emotion. You know, when you're watching a beautiful sunset or a

beautiful work of art another emotion, self transcendence emotion is admiration

so when you're seeing someone with great skills or talent or great moral values

that you're admiring and finally another example is the emotion that we

psychologists call elevation. And elevation is felt when you are seeing

someone doing a great moral action. Like imagine an old lady having a hard time

carrying her bags and you see a perfect stranger coming and helping this person

carrying the bag through her house and you were just watching that but it makes

you feel good inside and makes you feel like oh life is beautiful actually. So

these are examples of self transcendence emotions, they are about seeing something

or someone being greater than the self, something

beautiful around you. And there are categorized by two things. First of all

these emotions are not really about yourself, it's not you achieving

something or succeeding in something. When you're seeing this person helping

the old lady you know it doesn't really do anything to your goals or to your own

life it's just something beautiful happening outside. And so they're what is

called "other focus" like your focus in that moment is not really on yourself

your day-to-day concerns. It's about what's outside and what's happening

around you and because of this other focus comes the second characteristic of

those emotions and that's how they make you want to become a better person. So

they will activate this care for others and social tendencies you want to help

others. So those are the characteristics of self transcendent emotions that I have

been really interested in

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Tou Moua 1000 Subscribers Contest, Teaching my Past Self Comic Book Values - Duration: 2:25.

Hey gang!!!!!!!!!

Tou Moua is having a one thousand subscriber contest!!

Congratulations on hitting that milestone!

He wants to know...What advice we'd give to ourselves as collectors if we could go

backwards through time.

I know the exact, super-ironic point I'd go to!

Back in 2007, a pal of mine visited me, and we were walking around chatting, and he sez

to me he says, "Hey, do you know what my Star Wars books

are worth?

You're on ebay, right, so is that a good place to

make money on them?"

He had a shortbox of Marvel Star Wars, and this was at a time when Star Wars,

thanks to the prequels, was a punchline, and bronze and modern age comic were nearly worthless.

So I have to say to him, "Y'know, your books

are probably worth, let's say, dick.

Yeah, I'd value them at dick.

They're worth dick.

Comic prices are super low, it's really a buyer's market.

It should eventually come back, so you should hold onto them."

It's right then that I would jump out, smack my past self in the mouth, and scream, "Right,

stupid!

It's a buyer's market, so get buying!

New Mutants 98 guides for five dollars!!

You've got like two thousand sitting in your paypal, and you're gonna

spend it on stuff you'll read (maybe) once then bury it in the garage!!"

And I'm sure my past self would counter with, "I don't want to get my head up

my ass and start worrying about the value of comics again.

I just want to read them and bury them in the garage."

"I'm not talking about stuff that's worth thirty or forty, I'm talking about

stuff that's worth thousands, that you can buy now for nothing, with money

that's sitting in your paypal.

You know the market's gonna come back, and you can hold onto them

like you just told your jerkoff friend here."

And then I'd offer the friend a hundy for the Star Wars.

Then I'd hijack the time machine and go backwards through time to murder Adolf Hitler.

He also wants to know what comic book movie we're looking forward to this year.

I`m looking forward to Teen Titans Go!

To the Movies.

You might've seen the trailer and said, yeah yeah, fart joke....but there's a really vicious

zinger in there.

They start off by talking about how everyone wants to see Wonder Woman, so they dressed

as Wonder Woman.

But they end the trailer by zinging Aquaman.

Do they know something we don't?

Either way I want to see that's THAT mean-spirited.

So thank you again to Tou Moua, congrats again on the 1000 subscribers and thank you for

this contest (though I`m pretty sure those Ebay cards won`t work in Canada, but either

way...if I win, I`ll re-gift!)

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