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They may be royals, but Prince William and Kate Middleton are just like any other parents on Christmas morning: receiving a very early wake-up call from their excited children.

Prince George, 5, and Princess Charlotte, 3, were eager to start their holiday celebrations, their parents revealed to well-wishers lining the route of their annual walk to Christmas Day church services on Tuesday morning.

When a fan asked the pair how early they got up, William replied, "This morning was about 5 a.m." Kate smiled at the answer as the crowd moaned at the early time.

Another royal fan, Jill Lee, told reporters that Kate shared a similar story. "I said to Kate, 'Were the children up early?' and she said, 'Very early, but it was lovely to see their faces,' " according to Hello!

The royal family actually follows the tradition of opening presents on Christmas Eve after they've gathered at the Queen's country estate, Sandringham. In lieu of expensive gifts, they exchange silly presents. (Kate reportedly gave brother-in-law Prince Harry a plastic Grow Your Own Girlfriend kit one Christmas — something he won't be needing now with wife Meghan Markle by his side!)

During a visit to Leicester in late November, Kate revealed that her two eldest children were getting ready for the holiday festivities.

"They're doing well, thank you," she told a fan who asked about the little royals in a video shared by Harry_Meghan_Updates on Instagram. "They're getting excited for Christmas time, because they've started all their Christmas songs and the Christmas trees are going up."

Kate's mother, Carole Middleton, also opened up to U.K. newspaper The Telegraph about her grandchildren and their own Christmas tradition. The 63 year old shared that she likes to have as many trees as possible in her home, including one for each of her grandchildren's rooms.

Explaining her reasoning, Carole shared it's "so that they can decorate it themselves."

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Celebrate the new year in uptown Charlotte - Duration: 1:43.

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CMPD investigating deadly east Charlotte shooting - Duration: 1:23.

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Charlotte Mayor Vi Lyles reflects on 2018 - Duration: 2:16.

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LeBron James and Lonzo Ball record triple-doubles in Charlotte win - Duration: 6:33.

Luke Walton was surprised to hear that LeBron James and Lonzo Ball were only the second Lakers teammates to record a triple-double in the same game

'I know it's not easy. There have been a lot of good players in Lakers history and I figured Walton and Kobe (Bryant) would have done it a few times,' joked Walton, a former small forward with the Lakers

James had 24 points, 12 rebounds and 11 assists, while Ball had 16 points, 10 rebounds and 10 assists as Los Angeles routed the Charlotte Hornets 128-100 on Saturday night

The only other Lakers to accomplish the feat in the same game were Magic Johnson and Kareem Abdul-Jabbar on January 22, 1982

Lonzo Ball of the Los Angeles Lakers dunks the ball en route to a triple-double on Saturday LeBron James was unstoppable throughout, also recording a triple-double against Charlotte It was the first time two Lakers players had recorded a triple-double since January 22, 1982 Share this article Share 12 shares 'It's crazy, man,' Ball said

'I watched a lot of him (LeBron) growing up and now we had triple-doubles in the same game

I don't even know if I dreamed of that before.'Added James: 'Any time you can put yourself in the conversation of Laker history, all the guys that have come through this franchise, it's pretty special

'James said he and Ball are 'one in the same' when it comes to their playmaking ability

'We are always looking for our teammates and that's the greatest satisfaction we can have when we see our teammates score the ball,' James said

'Always been pretty good rebounders for our positions. Him at the guard spot and me at the 4

We just try to be aggressive, attack the rim, make shots. We showed all that tonight

'James continued his dominance over Charlotte, improving to 27-1 in his last 28 games against Michael Jordan's franchise

He was unstoppable throughout on penetration, helping the Lakers outscore the Hornets 40-17 in the third quarter and build a 30-point lead with his second triple-double of the season and 75th of his career

He did not need to play in the fourth quarter. The Los Angeles Lakers romped to a 128-100 win over the Charlotte Hornets on Saturday nightBall played into the fourth quarter to earn his third career triple-double

He finished 7 of 11 from the field, helping hand the Hornets their worst loss of the season on the second night of a back-to-back

Miles Bridges had a career-high 17 points for the Hornets. The crowd of 19,461 fans was the largest ever to see an NBA game at the Spectrum Center

 Sideline analyst Stephanie Ready worked her last game for the Hornets and the team did a nice tribute to her on the scoreboard during the first half

Ready is moving on to take a new position outside the organization. Charlotte was outrebounded 52-28

  The 128-100 loss was the Hornets' worst of the season on the second night of a back-to-back UP NEXT  Lakers: Visit Washington on Sunday

Hornets: Host Cleveland on Wednesday. Lance Stephenson was assessed a technical foul in the third quarter for playing the air guitar and taunting Miles Bridges after Stephenson buried a 3-pointer

But Walton said the beat must go on for Stephenson.'The air guitar, absolutely I'm OK with that,' Walton said

'He's been doing it and you can't take that away from the man. It's who he is. I tried once earlier this season and he just keeps doing it

That is what makes him is his competitive greatness and that is who he is.'JaVale McGee was 9 of 10 from the field and had 19 points and six rebounds despite playing with the flu

He had a nurse with IV bags in his own private room before the game.'I said that Tyson (Chandler) was starting if he can't go,' Walton said

'And right before the game they told me that JaVale wanted to give it a go, so we put him back in the starting lineup

'  Once a front-runner for the league MVP Kemba Walker was held to a season-low four pointsHornets two-time All-Star Kemba Walker was held to a season-low four points on 2-of-13 shooting from the field

Once a front-runner for the league MVP, Walker is in the midst of a major shooting slump, making just 32

3 percent (34 of 105) of his shots from the field in the last six games.Hornets coach James Borrego thinks Walker will be fine

'He's had a couple of nights where he has struggled shooting the ball but he'll continue to shoot

We trust him,' Borrego said. 'His confidence is still there. I think he'll kick it back into gear real soon

He's having to work a lot out there. The way teams are guarding him and the way he's having to defend

For whatever reason he just hasn't seen the ball go through the net right now. ' Share this article Share 12 shares

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Y/N: hey hobi

Y/N: is everything alright?

Let's just say

I am happy you are okay

well, really

I was so worried

really

I couldn't even sleep

I have been trying to reach you all day but you weren't answering so

I've been

really, really concerned

I was scared

I still am honestly

but there was really no reason for you to distance yourself like this

you know I wouldn't judge you

I just want to understand

talk to me please

I think I know a little

about what those scars are

I am not going to make you explain

but I know they are not an accident

I have seen those before on other people

I know how self harm looks like

and it's what I saw on you yesterday

don't worry

I am really not mad at you or anything

this doesn't change anything

no matter what you are still my lovely Y/N

it's just

I was so surprised

I really didn't mean to cry

but it really hurts to see you hurt

and I felt so sad

I get that

you were scared

but I don't want you to be

I want to be here for you

and I can't be if you keep shutting me out

I really want to

support you

even if you don't

feel like talking about it

or anything like that

cause as I hope you know

the worst thing for me is

is to see the people I love hurting

so I've thought a lot about how to help you

and honestly

I have no idea how to

I looked it up online

cause I want to learn as much as possible about this

it is

more important now

I have only seen it

from afar

no one I personally know has ever done this

But I have actually seen it on some ARMY

I wish they wouldn't

do this to themselves

I always want to help them but

it's a really sensitive subject

so I can't help

for real

it makes me so upset

this is too

stigmatized

I want to talk about it

let people know they are not alone and there's hope

so many people go through this

I wish people knew

it is an addiction

the same as any other drug

you want to stop but then it won't let go

and you feel trapped and lonely

with this

and I've noticed that it's sometimes called a "trend"among the young

in some articles

it's even something

shameful to some

A lot of people think it's about attention

but the majority hide their scars anyways

they don't want people to think it's for attention

another reason for hiding it

could be

fear of being forced to stop

cause when you have self-harmed for a while

it becomes like

your own safe place

somewhere you can feel something

when you need an escape

from things you can't talk to people about

because they would never understand

what you are going through

and even

if you told them you self harm

they'd ask why

and you don't even know yourself

I think only people who go through it

can actually understand

what I mean..

I feel like I am beating around the bush

so I am just gonna say what I think

I really

hate this

I hate that you are hurting yourself

and I really want you to stop

but I know I can't demand that

and it makes me so frustrated

you know?

I wish I could

throw everything away

everything you use

but I know

that

I can't do that to you

only you can actually

I think

you should realize how serious this is

your life is on the line here

and is it worth it?

no it really isn't

this is nothing but bad

nothing about it is good

it makes you feel worse

at least

in the long run it can be really bad

and affect you very negatively

I know it can be hard

to imagine yourself without it

I agree it's scary parting with something you are so attached to

finding other things

and ignoring it

I can imagine

it is very challenging

because you have

made it your place of comfort

you just need it

it's important to know that you actually don't need it

and this is what you can

tell yourself.. when

you want it

convince yourself

that you

don't /need/ it

because you don't

try to challenge it and see it as your enemy

it isn't your friend and it can't do anything nice for you or anything like that

only temporary fixes

and then you are left with

scars forever

and speaking of

I don't think

you should be ashamed of your scars

but

you need to

think about the circumstances

and if it's suitable

to show them in a situation

if you are going out with some friends

I think it's alright to show it then

and if they

feel uncomfortable then it is

really just something they need to get over

cause if they can't accept you for it

then

they can't accept who you are

cause it really is a part of you

and if they are fresh wounds

which I hope not

maybe it is

better not to bring attention to it

focus on keeping them safe

but of course when you are with me

you don't have to

I don't mind them

I want you to feel comfortable around me

so you don't have to

hide anymore

I am not judgmental about it

My heart just clenches at the thought

but I don't think you understand

how much this affects me

it has made me think a lot

and I am.. I just

feel really /hopeless/ about it you know?

I have always thought

that I could be a better boyfriend to you

and I am just realizing how bad I have been

Y/N: don't say that~

but it's true

I couldn't see how bad you felt and it's kinda my job

so I feel like I have a part in this

but now we can only look forward

we can start by

how can you

get out of this bubble?

that you find yourself in

when you self harm

we have to figure it out

you can try different things

ask yourself why do I want it now

is it really

gonna solve your problems

at all

like I said you can convince yourself you don't need it

and find something else to do

you know that

I care about you so much

more than anything

more than you know

I really f*cking do

I just want you to know

I think you are the most beautiful and precious

person I have ever known

and laid eyes on

I wish you knew that

and I know you always think

that I am lying about it

but I am really truthful

I think I have always known

you aren't totally okay

I don't know

why I didn't act on it

but I think it was subconscious

and whenever you would like flinch

or move away

I would just brush it off

I really thought it was just me

because I can be over the top sometimes

and you might not be used to that

cause you are

more of the quiet type

and I can be too optimistic sometimes, missing out on details

because I can be like that

a little off

I haven't discovered this sooner

and kinda let your self harm get this bad

so I really want

I want to apologize for that

from now on I am

going to be as aware as possible

and I want to be the best boyfriend I can be

and help you out

even if I don't understand everything

I will always do my best to

and cheer you up

make you smile

and as happy as possible

if it wasn't for work I would come to you

and I have never hated my schedule this much

but everything is gonna be okay

I will be there soon

and we can sit down and talk about it

but for now we can

speak over the phone like this

and I will be near my phone whenever you call

you know

I totally believe

you can overcome this and be the happiest person alive

it seems impossible now

but just wait and you will see

it will take a lot of effort and It's not gonna be perfect

but it's okay

nothing is really perfect

we have to struggle and feel pain

to make a happy future

I really

really

think you can do this

you know I really love you

and really grateful

that I still have you

I really love you.. heart

Y/N: I love you too hobi, thank you for understanding

Y/N: I feel like crying right now. I don't know if I am sad or relieved

maybe both

don't cry now, it's okay

you know I would too then

promise you will be careful

I want you safe

whenever you feel weak or tired

you just need to call me

when you feel nothing is worth living for

any longer

I am here then

you know my name is J-hope for a reason

I am your hope

I'll be your strength

Don't forget about me

I love you

bye!

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ART TUTORIAL #3 - How To Paint A Self Portrait Painting / Painting Parody Tutorial ~ Marinksy - Duration: 1:43.

Good morning, day, evening and night. It's Sharon again, I am a voiceover from

America and today we will learn how to paint a self-portrait. Have you been

looking at famous self portrait paintings wondering how did they do it?

How did they manage to paint themselves? Have you tried to paint yourself by

looking at the mirror, but every time you look at it it's different, your head has

moved, expression changed, and now you have to start all over?

Have you tried to paint yourself by looking at the photo of yourself, but on

the photo you look different as you look right now, and you want to paint yourself

how you look now to save a moment in time?

Don't worry I will show you how you can paint your own portrait without the need

of a mirror or a photo. You will need: - a canvas and some paint

-a chair -a model - you. Let's get started. First, take

a painting position in front of the canvas.

Then, sit on a chair to pose for yourself. You could stand, but it's easier to sit.

Start painting. This way you are able to capture yourself in the present time and

have a REAL self-portrait. Don't smile, nobody smiles on self-portraits as it

would hurt your mouth to smile for a long time. Just sit still and paint

yourself, looking miserable, existence is pain.

Thanks for watching, more educational videos to come in the future.

Live long and prosper <3

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Elements of Self - Duration: 19:46.

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Financial Self Care is a thing - Duration: 5:40.

Hello there!

Welcome back to my channel!

Today we are going to be talking about financial self-care.

Usually, when I speak about financial self-care I have people who are just shocked that financial,

or finances, or budgeting can be apart of self-care, but it can.

So I think this is a pretty important topic.

Financial self-care is actually pretty simple.

It's when you take a look at your finances and figure out how your money best fits into

your life.

But before we get started le's actually clarify that financial security, which is the peace

of mind that your income is going to cover all of your expenses and not having to worry

about that, that is a privilege that many do not have, especially in this economy.

However, regardless of your financial situation, you can benefit from practicing financial

self-care.

The first step to practicing financial self-care is documenting all of your expenses.

This can be things like rent, utility bills, phone bill, car note or bus fair depending

on your mode of transportation.

Basically, anything that you have to pay for in order to survive, is an expense.

Calculate food in there as well, even if you are getting some form of financial assistance

or government assistance, and that government assistance or financial assistance should

be counted as your income because it is apart of your income.

Once you have all your expenses totaled up, and you see that total, take a small break

if you need to.

Because I did, I needed to.

When I first did this I didn't realize just how much of my income went to like rent, gas,

and electric, I have a car note as well.

So I just needed to take a breather.

And just breathe for a second.

After you're done taking your break, write up your income.

Where is the money coming from and how much?

If it changes from month to month then make an estimate based off the previous months,

and what you got paid in the previous months.

Often times I like to take the lowest month and then estimate from there.

I don't like to start off with this really huge amount that I got one of the months.

You know, because it can be unrealistic.

So then you're going to take your income and subtract your expenses from that.

If you have nothing left over then you are living at your means, if you have some money

left over then you are living below your means, but if you have no money and you actually

have more expenses than coming in as income then you are living above your means.

For a long time, before I started budgeting, I was living above my means.

Because I didn't really have an understanding of where all my money was going to.

But once I actually started budgeting I learned that I had to cut back on certain things.

And it wasn't frivolous things, it was more or less like, my phone.

So what I ended up doing was I found out that my phone actually could be used on wifi, and

that there were apps that you could use to be able to make phone calls or text or whatever

it is that you need, through that app, through wifi.

So I canceled my phone service and only used wifi.

However, it may be hard for some people to know where to cut back in their life as far

as expenses.

I like to think, does this expense help me survive, or how can I get this thing at a

cheaper cost or free.

Financial self-care, like all other forms of self-care, is different for each person.

In later videos, we will discuss different types of budgeting,

and so maybe you'll find one that works best for you in those videos.

When I was in college budgeting for me was just putting coins in a jar whenever I could.

And what that ended up doing was that by the end of the year I ended up saving $20.

Considering that my rent was a paycheck and a half that was still good because I still

had to pay for my phone bill, I still had to pay for transportation for me to get to

and from places.

So it was pretty good that I saved the $20.

Do understand that even if you do the coin saving, there may be times where you save

that money and then have to use it the next month.

Because maybe you got less hours at work, or some emergency came up and you had to utilize

that money.

So do understand that even if you get to the end of the year and you don't have anything

in savings, know that there are life situations that happen and you just have to go with it.

It's kind of sad, it really is, but that is the nature of things.

Honestly, Financial self-care can be one of the harder versions of self-care to deal with.

So many people, including myself, still struggle when it comes to taking care of our finances.

Sometimes the smallest changes can add up and lead to the biggest impacts in our life

and our growth.

So that's it for this video.

Thank you for watching, I hope you learned something today.

Let me know in the comment section below what are some forms of self-care dealing with financial

self-care that you do.

Do you budget, what kind of budgeting do you do?

2019 is just around the corner, i.e. tomorrow so this makes a good thing to take into the

new year as a new habit... that you do...

consistently... for the whole year...

Don't forget to subscribe and hit the bell button so you can get notified when I upload

new videos, like this video and be sure to share it so others can benefit as well.

I hope to see you in my next video!

Bye!

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Books To Read For Self Development in 2019 - Duration: 13:30.

hey what's going on it's Steph here from StephJKing.com coming to you from

beautiful Brisbane Australia and Happy New Year's today is officially the last

day of 2018 which is totally mind-blowing so I hope you have a

wonderful New Year's Eve and New Years Day whatever that means for you if you're

gonna go out and enjoy it with friends and family or if you're going to rug up

or not rug up in Australia that's for sure but like chill out relax it's a bit

of Netflix or something like that I hope you have a lovely lovely time recently

you would have noticed I've been doing a lot of videos around my how to prepare

for the new year and this video is nothing different I wanted to share with

you a list of books that you should read for self development in 2019 so I want

to give you a couple of the books that I've read throughout 2018 that I really

really loved and then I'm also going to share with you my list of books that I

have saved on my Google Drive and also show you which ones that I'm about to

start reading as well but first things first let's go through my favorite ones

from 2018 now I do have some physical books here but there were a couple that

I also read well listen to on audible so I will speak to those ones at the end as

well but the first one is earthers hiring by Peter Kelly actually did a

full book review on this one so I will leave that link above for you

I think it's that side and also linked below if you want to go check that out

but this one was a really like an easy read the author is Australian so I kind

of felt like I wanted to support that anyway and I follow her on social media

and I just love her vibe and I love her energy and the message that she shares

with the world didn't disappoint that special so it's it's kind of written in

a way towards Millennials so my sort of age bracket and just how the world is

changing like how things are happening now from a

business perspective that back in the day or you know just even recently

there's a lot of hustle and grinding and whatnot whereas this book kind of talks

about just going into your flow and listening to like your intuition and

where you think you need to be and how you need to do things and just really be

true to who you are so it talks about stepping into your own what you can do

from like a business point of view in this day and age talks about money and

mindset and actually wrote my own money story because of this book and yeah that

was really good it sort of brought up some negative thoughts or feelings that

I had towards money that I didn't even realize I had so yes that's the first

book next one was money master the game by Tony Robbins this one I was

absolutely obsessed with and it's not you know it's quite a thick book but

this one I was literally like any spare time I had I was reading this book and I

think it's because just during 2018 for me there was a focus on getting my

budgeting sorted getting my fan finances sorted making sure I had the right

accounts open making sure that I was putting money into an investing account

so I could invest that money for it to work for me so this book was just really

perfect timing for me and I just absolutely loved it he pretty much talks

about all the different ways that you can invest your money he talks to all

the massive people like Warren Buffett who else was in there are so many people

so if you are interested in learning more about what to do with your money

and how to manage it then this is a fantastic book it is written more so too

I guess the American side of things so they talk about the 401k but if you're

Ozzie or in a different country in Australia we have superannuation and

superannuation is pretty much the same as a 401k so you can kind of it does

reference other countries so definitely pick that up for a read and then another

one by Tony Robbins is awaken the giant within now this is a

book that I am currently reading I am literally within the first few

chapters so not very far along but I'm loving this book already I'm really

finding that I really like the way that Tony Robbins writes and how he does his

books so I'm probably gonna go out and get a lot more of his books because I

really enjoy his style and just the messaging that he does so he just seems

to do a lot of research when it comes to his books which I really really like but

this one awaken the giant within take immediate control of your mental

emotional physical and financial destiny it just makes you realize the reasons

why you do things and the reasons why you may not have motivation in a

particular area and it's all about the fact that just from what I've read so

far anyway is that as humans we always seek out pleasure vast pain so all our

decisions all our actions everything we do in life is based on us trying to

remove pain and seek out pleasure and that's not just sort of like physical

pain it could be a pain that you've connected to a certain things so for

example it might be that you're trying to lose weight and previously you have

been on really restrictive diets you didn't enjoy it so now you have a pain

associated with losing weight so you then self-sabotage it as much as you

feel like motivated at the beginning and you really want to lose that weight and

you don't understand why you don't have like the motivation or the willpower to

be able to do it it's because you pretty much have a negative connection to

losing weight because of all the previous diets and your feeling of being

restricted and just that negative emotion towards that particular

situation so he actually then goes through and shows you how you can turn

that around so the habits that you want to get rid of how you then can associate

pain to it so you don't want to go back to it and then the good habits or things

that you do want to put attention on to that you may not

been successful in in the past it's changing your thinking around it so that

you can connect a feeling of pleasure to that so when you think about it it's not

ah but you know it's always so hungry and I felt really restricted when I had

to lose weight and it's like that's just not worth it to me you've then got this

more positive connection to that situation which makes you actually want

to go do it and the last two books are actually on audible so the first one was

crushing it by Gary Vaynerchuk it's pretty much about running a successful

business online so utilizing social media and how you can do that he pretty

much goes out and interviews all these people that have had success on

different platforms and they share their stories of what they've done and how

they were able to do it and it was just a really inspiring book to understand

that you can pretty much make money from anything this day and age and it made me

feel really grateful for being in such a time where we do have YouTube Facebook

Twitter Instagram it's really given a lot of people this awesome opportunity

to be able to be super successful and he just really dives into that in that book

so that's a good one if you do want to start looking at how you can make some

money online and the other one is the values factor by dr. John Demartini I

love dr. John Demartini his teachings and messaging I just really am connected

to you and I absolutely love this was a really great book particularly if you

are struggling with trying to determine what is most important to you and what

your life purpose is this really helped me figure out and own what my life

purpose is and be absolutely okay with it so it is a great book highly

recommend that one I highly recommend anything by dr. John Demartini

now I read a bunch of other books as well but those are the ones that just

really connected with me throughout the year some books I started and just did

not feel a connection to them so I actually didn't even finish reading them

and that may not be you know anything against the book it could have just been

that I wasn't ready for that messaging because I've read books for a second

time and I felt like I've gotten a lot out of

them so I won't talk about those books but I will go on and I'm now going to

show you my book list that I keep on my Google Drive so let's go have a look at

that so this is my book list here that I keep on my Google Drive so I'm able to

access it wherever I need and I've got quite a bit here if we scroll down

you'll see that you know I've got the title the author and then the category

next to it and you can see that I'm very much into wisdom and spirituality that

seems to be the topic of the books that I enjoy reading at the moment and that's

not to say that I don't enjoy reading about business or money or anything like

that it just seems to be that I get a lot out of those types of books and

that's just something that's really interesting me at the moment so I want

to read more and more and more about those types of things now how I put this

list together is I just listen to what other people are recommending so people

that are inspirational to me or my mentors or just even people that are in

a very similar community to me so for example the other day I was coming to

the end of one book and so I put out a post in a mastermind community that I'm

a part of and I just said what is your favorite books because I know that group

of people are on a very similar journey to me and have very similar interests so

I looked at all the books that they recommended and then I chose the ones

that really connected to me so the ones that are highlighted in green here

they're the ones that I really want to read next

so again dr. John Demartini the breakthrough experience I've heard

amazing things about that book so I really want to get my hands on it I

haven't been able to find it yet but I will the next one that I really want to

do is you are a badass at making money so I've actually already got that one on

audible so that's pretty much good to go it's just a matter of freeing up some

time I don't really like having multiple books on the go because I like to give

my undivided attention to one book and really study what they're saying to do

and what their advice is in that book so I don't listen to one audible book

and then read a physical book I'm doing one or the other next one is the

untethered soul by Michael a singer that one came up recommended quite a bit

that's very much spirituality so that should be an interesting read next one

is unlimited power by Tony Robbins again I really enjoy his books so I think that

I will like this one as well and the other one is journey of souls by Michael

Newton again this is a spirituality book the reason why I have a couple of

spirituality books on here that I want to read really soon is because in 2019

one of my goals is I want to learn more about that topic because I really

haven't up until now and I've started to sort of learn a little bit more about it

and understand different people's beliefs and I want to learn more so I

can come up with my own I guess conclusion and my own decision on what I

believe in I just want to learn more about the soul and what happens to the

soul after we leave this physical plane so those first five books that I was

talking about earlier the ones that I've already read I highly recommend reading

those ones for self development if you haven't already done so and then sharing

my list is just giving you some more ideas on books that you may want to read

as well so I will leave a list of the next five books that I'm going to read

the ones that were highlighted in green and I'll leave those below in the

description box for you to go check those ones out if you like as well let

me know if you've read any of those books that I've recommended or if you

have a book that you absolutely love that you think based on what I've shared

today that I would enjoy leave me a comment boy and let me know what that

book is because I'm always adding new books to my list so don't be afraid to

leave me a comment and let me know again I hope you have a wonderful Happy New

Year's my next few videos are going to be very specific to how to write goals

for life mastery and also make sure that you are successful in achieving them so

if that is something that you're interested in do make sure you are

subscribed to my channel I will leave a link for you on this side

and until my next upload I'll leave a couple of other videos on this side for

you if you want to go check those out anyway take care and I will see you in

the new year bye

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Higher-Self Transformation Meditation that will change your life forever... - Duration: 30:01.

It's about getting to a totally new paradigm, a totally new level, which is who you naturally

are.

So you're gonna be able to let go of your old self image and you're going to begin to

be that authentic part of who you naturally are.

So personally, I think this is going to be one of the most powerful meditations I've

done and I think that if you've listened to it for 21 days, it will transform your life.

So let's go ahead and get into it right now.

What I'd like to ask you to do is to take in a couple of deep breaths in and out with

me, and every breath we take, what we're going to be doing is we're going to be relaxing

our body and we're going to be putting our hands inside of our heart center.

Now, as we put our hands over our heart.

Even just doing that for a couple of minutes, we begin to bring the awareness from being

inside of our head to inside of our body.

And as the awareness goes into our heart, we start to grow that energy around our heart

center.

That's what the heartmath institute is shown.

And just by doing this alone, we begin to start becoming and being who we naturally

are.

So do this either laying down or meditating and sitting down, making sure that you aren't

driving when you do this.

And, uh, we'll go ahead and get into it right now.

So what I would like to ask you to do is to first off, taking a deep breath in, deep breath

out with me and feel your body relax more and more.

So it's going to take a deep breath in

every breath you take, know that your body's becoming more and more relaxed.

Now put your hands over your heart like this.

I began to feel the sensation inside of your heart knowing that as you put the sensation

in there right now, you're increasing that electromagnetic energy inside of your heart,

feeling more of that love that you naturally are.

Now go ahead and take another deep breath in.

Deep breath out.

As you breathe out, feel the sensation inside of your heart increase with more love.

Feel your body relax.

Begin to loosen up.

Now.

Set the intention right now that this meditation changes your life.

That's how powerful you are, that you can set this intention right now, and by the end

of this meditation, you will feel like a 100 percent better authentic version of you.

So let's take in one more deep breath in.

Deep breath out.

Fuel our body.

Relax Bri that out.

Sink into this level of relaxation right now.

Now bring the awareness to your forehead and fill your forehead.

Begin to relax.

Feel behind your eyelids.

Imagine the muscles behind your eyes relaxing.

As you bring this awareness throughout your body, you can feel your muscles loosening

up relaxing.

Bring it to your cheeks now.

Feel that sensation in your jaw.

Feel how loose your jaw feels.

Relax your tongue muscle.

Bring the awareness now into your throat's.

Feel your throat.

Begin to relax now.

Bring the awareness into your left arm, your left hand.

Feel it, loosen up and relax.

Breathe that sensation to your right arm, your right hand.

Feel it.

Relax.

I bring the awareness into your chest, underneath your hands, over your hearts, but the awareness

inside of your heart center right now and imagine that there is a ball of energy inside

of your hearts.

Any color that you like and imagine that right now, this ball of energy is spinning in a

clockwise position.

I'm going to count down from five to one with every number I count.

You're going to feel your body relax more and you're going to feel the increase of love,

energy inside of your heart.

You're going to feel that sensation increase.

Put your hands over your heart.

Now fuel it.

Five.

Imagine that ball of energy, any color that you like, spinning faster and faster, and

the faster it spins, the more you feel this love energy inside of your heart for feeling

it now begin to increase.

You can feel this love.

Begin to this warm feeling.

Begin to spread throughout your body for three, feeling it now become more and more, more

and more love to as you feel it now.

Imagine it increasing even more and one now.

You feel it spread through your entire body, knowing that you feel more love now than you

have in a long time.

Know that this sensation is more connected to who you really are.

Now bringing the awareness from your heart into your solar plexus, right below that of

your heart and feel that area of your body.

Relax.

Bring the awareness now down into your abdomen.

Fill your abdomen, loosen up, relax.

Bring the awareness into your left leg, your left foot, Phillip, loose.

Relax, becoming heavy.

Bring the awareness into your right leg, your right foot.

Feel heavy, your foot in your legs.

Feel how relaxed you feel.

Now, imagine any old energy, any old emotions that you don't prefer to feel.

Imagine them flowing out of your body by going out of your heels.

Imagine that energy, that dark energy going out of your heels.

As you put the sensation into your heels, you can feel that energy begin to decrease

out of your body knowing

that right now you are letting go of what no longer serves.

I noticed how light you feel now, how much more relaxed you feel, and now imagine yourself

in a very relaxing place.

It can be indoors or outdoors.

It's a place you can go anytime you want to do inner work.

It can be a real place or a place in your mind.

Imagine that you were there right now.

Look around and notice what you see.

What colors do you see?

Imagine those colors becoming brighter and brighter.

What kind of sounds do you hear?

Imagine those sounds becoming louder and louder.

Notice how relaxed you feel in this place.

How you can come here.

Anytime you want to quiet your mind to relax.

I notice that about 10 or 15 feet away, you see this doorway, this free standing door

in the middle of the place that you're at.

Now, go ahead and walk up to this door and notice that at the top of the door it says

your name, higher self.

This is the doorway into your heart and to the sacred space of your heart and to this

connection with your higher self where you can get any guidance you want, any question

you want will be answered, and you will feel the authentic core vibration of who you are.

Now go ahead and put your hand on the Doorknob, twist the doorknob open up the door, and noticed

that you see a stairwell that is going down at the bottom of the stairs.

You can see a very bright high vibrational light.

Now begin to take a step down.

Notice with every step you take, you feel more and more relaxed.

You feel this increase of vibration happening inside your body.

You feel this love energy that is increasing with every step that you take.

Take another step.

Now.

Feel this increase of energy as you get closer and closer to your higher self, inside of

your heart, you feel this energy begin to dissipate.

Things that no longer serve you.

Begin to feel yourself.

Let go of vibrations that aren't serving you anymore.

Take another step.

Now you are 10 steps away from being at the bottom of the stairwell and from being in

the presence of your high vibrational higher self.

I'm going to count down from 10 to one with every number I count.

You're going to feel the energy inside of your body.

Increase with love unlike anything you've ever felt before,

and you're going to feel this connection to who you really are.

Now, take it another step.

Ten, feeling your body now begin to double with the sensation of love.

Nine.

Feeling this energy inside of your heart.

Begin to increase.

Eight, feeling more love flow through your body than ever before.

Take another step now.

Seven, getting closer to the bottom of the stairs, feeling this light begin to increase

inside of your body.

Six, five, double the amount of sensation in your love now.

Now you really feel it flowing through you for three, getting closer to the bottom of

the stairs.

Now you're almost there to double the amount of sensation your body double the amount of

sensation in your heart.

One, now you are at the foot of the stairs.

Take one more step and there you are.

It is so bright you can hardly see and you feel this sensation flow through your body

unlike anything you've experienced before.

Allow the sensation to be there so in this vibration, if any emotions come up right now,

allow them to come up and know that it is a process of letting go and allowing yourself

to be in this high vibrational state.

This is who you really are.

I notice that as your vision begins to become clear, as you get used to this bright light

and this love sensation, notice that in the distance you can see your higher, which is

you.

Your higher self looks like you just brighter, very strong glimmer in the eyes, the most

Compassionate Look of love in the eyes.

Take a couple steps towards your higher self as your higher self.

Take steps towards you.

Your higher self tells you right now.

Welcome home now.

Any question that you have for your higher self, your higher self will answer for you.

Ask your higher self any questions you might have, any guidance you might ask for, and

pay attention to what your higher self says.

Ask those questions now.

Now Bank yourself your higher self for any information you've just been received.

Ask your higher self if there's any advice at your higher self has for you and pay attention

to what comes up now.

Bank yourself, your higher self or any information that you've just received.

Now what your higher self now tells you is that you are going to shed the old self image.

Your higher self now walks you over to a chair, a chair with dials on it.

This is a chair.

You can come anytime you want inside this sacred space of your which is where you are

now, and what you can do is you can let go of what no longer serves and why you're in

a higher vibrational energy

and your higher self offers for you to sit down and notice that as you sit down, notice

how comfortable this chair feels that just how it looks serious.

This chair fields.

Now on the left side of this chair, on the armrest you see that have a dial, and on the

right side you see another dial.

Now what we're going to do is we're going to let go of the old self image and this right

here, this exercise right here will change your life forever because you will let go

of what no longer serves.

You will let go of the negativity of the emotions that no longer serve you, and you're going

to feel them drift off.

Notice that on the left, it's labeled your old self image, and right now it is on a 10.

Well, we're going to do now is we're going to let go of our old self image.

Set the intention right now that you let it go, that it is served you.

You're at peace with it, but it is time to let it go.

I put your hand on the dial.

I'm going to count down from 10 to one with every number I count.

You're going to feel an increase.

Have an energy in your body of letting go.

You're gonna.

Feel like this old cell phone is drifts away.

This false self of limitations drifts away and it begins to dissipate.

It's going to be hard to remember the limited self as before.

Put your hand on the dial at 10

and move it from 10 to nine.

As it moves from nine, you can see this self image in front of you, the limited self.

Look how it starts to fade away.

Eight, with every number that I count you feel this old self image begin to dissipate.

The negative memories leaving with it.

Seven, looking at that self image is becoming more and more faint now.

Six, five, feeling yourself.

Let go.

Of what?

No longer serves four, three, double the amount of sensation, your heart feeling like it is

dissipating the old self.

Image two and now you can barely see your old self image and one zero.

Now notice that the old self image that you could imagine is dissipated.

You have let go of your old self image and from this point going forward, your life is

forever changed.

You are letting go of the false self.

I feel how relieved it feels to let of those lower emotions.

Now put your hand on the right side of the dial or the dial is labeled your authentic

higher self.

Now notice that right now it's on level one, but I'm going to do is I'm going to count

from one to 10 with every number I count.

You're going to move the dial all the way up to 10.

By the time it reaches 10, you're going to feel like you have 100 percent merged with

your higher self.

You're going to feel love inside of your body unlike anything you've felt before, and you're

going to know that from this point going forward, you are trans formed.

Put your hand on the dial now and feel it.

Every number I count, you're going to feel double the amount of sensation in your body.

One, move it to to double the amount of sensation.

Now you can feel it inside of your body, inside of your heart.

Begin to increase.

Three, fueling it become more and more and more and more love for five fuel in this authenticity

flow through your body.

Six, feeling the energy increased even more.

Now, feeling this connection inside of yourself unlike anything you've felt before.

Seven, eight.

Feel it now.

Double again.

Nine, allow this light to flow through your body.

Now.

Allow this authenticity to merge with you and 10, this sensation

is completely flowing through your body and you are more in the love vibration than you

have ever felt before.

Allow yourself to feel in this energy.

Know that

this is who you are.

From this point going forward, you are forever changed.

He will notice that people respond to you differently now that you're more authentic.

You feel like the layers have been dropped.

He felt like you can just be yourself and you

feel like you're really living from your heart.

Pay attention over the next few days of how different your life becomes.

Allow yourself to sink into your heart more and every time you

put your hands over your heart, you will remember this sensation that you feel right now.

Listen to this meditation for at least 21 days to get

the maximum benefit out of it, and for now, I'm

going

to leave you in this higher self vibration.

Allow yourself to soak it in and just know that you are forever changed.

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Help Your Parents Navigate Dementia | Q&A: Self Care & Mindful Loving Touch - Duration: 10:09.

hi everyone I am back my name is Laura Smothers - Chu and wanted to say happy last

week of December we are almost through the holidays and I wanted to bring you

the last video in the self care series so if you have not seen my past videos

one of my fellow daughters or other daughters like me she asked me what is a

cheap not time-consuming way to provide self-care for herself and so in this

series of a bunch of how many videos I've done maybe five this is my last one

and it's really about the power of touch so in these past videos I've talked

about being more mindful when you're running outside and interacting with

nature when you're reminiscing about the holidays in the past and how that can

change your mindset for the good and basically it's really important that you

are also getting that universal language of touch and not only does that help you

but it also helps your caregiving parent and your parent with dementia so I was

actually going to talk about a different mindful topic today but I remembered my

visit with my parents a couple of days ago and the touch was just so important

let me just back up a little bit so I have a social enterprise called

befriended heart and it is for other daughters who have a parent with

dementia and are also supporting the caregiving parent in caring for the

person with dementia so basically I live long distance from my parents my mom

takes care of my dad on a daily basis but of course I provide the other

support since I am an only child so that being said my dad when he was first

diagnosed about five years ago the first thing to go were his language

skills and so that's called aphasia so he was not able to think of the words he

wanted to say and he wasn't able to get those out so very early on in my dad's

diagnosis I you know I guess realize the power of touch and how that is a

universal language it is really the basic thing that we all do with each

other to communicate and have that personal connection and you know I

personally believe as I said in a couple of other videos that you know I really

believe that the person with dementia is still in there and really what's the

best way to communicate with them you know other than words but with touch

because that really is a universal love language and I will put a link up here

to the love languages that I talked about five love languages if your

caregiving parent doesn't want help because I think that this definitely

connects to that but I wanted to talk about some of the ways that I was able

to provide loving touch to my dad with dementia and also my caregiving mom you

know during the holidays this year so as I mentioned also another previous video

if you haven't seen this was the last Christmas that my parents are going to

be together in the same house before they both moved closer to me so my dad

is going to a great memory care facility and my mom is going to go to a newly

built independent living apartment so as I'm excited about that there is also

some sorrow there there's some anxiety what my dad does not know yet exactly

what the plans are my mom and I of course are very very informed and so

what my mom and I were trying to do was to try to have the best Christmas that

we could you know realizing the circumstances

that we were going to be my parents are gonna be moving next year so anyway I

would say that probably all of these different ways of physical touch are

applicable to both the parent with dementia and your care getting a parent

but I will say with my caregiving parent probably the best thing I did this year

to manage my mom stress and my own stress was to hire a home caregiver

basically someone that is paid by the family who comes in provides

companionship I know our caregiver cooks for my parents and my mom actually

increased that to five days a week and she said that it's been so helpful and

it really has increased their their quality of life so I did actually do an

interview with my friend Dr. Natali who is from Dementia Careblazers she also

has a very well-known YouTube channel within the dementia industry and I did

talk all about what the steps were that I took to hire a home caregiver and

really you know create all the stops to prevent any funny business from

happening I do actually have a personal story with that so I will actually also

link that here too I hope that you check out that interview and when you check

out that video you'll also get free access to my ten step to home care guide

so I hope you enjoy that and so for the yeah touch options basically I noticed

that my dad has started to do these behaviors where he is you know

scratching his arm a lot scratching his head and from my research

I found that that sometimes comes from boredom so knowing what I did about the

physical touch I started to hold his hand in the car

I saw that it would stop the bit the behavior you know the itching behavior

and it would also you know he started to warm up my hands a couple of days ago

which really made me feel good and as we know this video is also about self care

for us and so the physical touch helps us as well so I was holding his hand

also I know um you know my dad is watching more TV lately than he used to

and so because I can't necessarily engage with him using words you know I

put my head on his shoulder and I could tell that he really enjoyed that he

smiled you know and so while he is more verbal at this time as we know dementia

is not necessarily consistent and so just getting that reaction from him I

could tell that he enjoyed this physical touch

also hugs are huge so um you know hugs actually if there I believe a study has

shown that if it's 20 seconds or longer it really creates oxytocin it creates

dopamine both of those are happy chemicals and it actually decreases

cortisol so as you can imagine someone with dementia is likely pretty stressed

out a lot of the time because especially in my dad's case you know he can't

express himself the way that he used to so

the hugs you know lasting more than 20 seconds you can do that with you're a

parent with dementia and you can also do it with the caregiving parent so I've

been focusing on that as well and not only does it increase oxytocin for the

person that you're hugging oxytocin dopamine and lowers cortisol for the

person that you're hugging but it also does that for you too so I highly

recommend that I know that some of you have parents that you know have dementia

that causes your appearance to lash out or or hit you and of course your you

know you can try to put your hand on their shoulder may be a very you know

less I guess in vase way of providing your a loving touch but

you could also just wait until after they're not agitated anymore and you

know provide that touch on their shoulder or a hug also holding hands as

I mentioned is really helpful too so I think that is about it I hope you find

this helpful let me know what type of physical touch your parent prefers

whether it's the primary caregiver or the parent with dementia and I would

love to see that in the comments below finally I wanted to tell you about a

interview that I'm actually holding next month with my friend and guest expert

Julie went she is a nutritionist and she is specializing right now in delaying

dementia or basically increasing cognitive reserve in our brains so that

we as daughters of a parent with dementia will be less likely to get

dementia so I hope that you will join me next month and if you subscribe now you

will be the first one to see that video so I hope that you have a great New

Year's Eve and I look forward to providing you some interviews next year

thanks so much bye

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Change inner self | Be the Change you want to see in the world | MyGov Submissio - Duration: 1:31.

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You can put them in temple. Brother please, please brother! Auto Guy: go ahead

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Either this Kabir's saying or Mahatma Gandhi's words..

Be the change you want to see in the world...

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5 ways to make self-care happen in the new year - Duration: 7:42.

Welcome to GMA's New Year, Best You. As we ring in 2019, we are sharing everything you need to start the new year strong

From keeping your New Year's resolutions to Instagram-worthy meal prep to workout programs to eating plans to taking time for yourself, we have it all covered

Self-care is a wellness buzzword but actually putting self-care into practice? Not so easy

The thing is, self-care is really just doing things that make you happy and make you feel good

It does not have to mean getting a massage, going away on a solo, exotic vacation or taking an entire day off of work (but everyone needs those days too!)

More from (MORE: 9 wellness trends to watch in 2019) The key, experts say, is knowing what works for you and making it happen

"If you're going to get it together in 2019, you have to know what works for you," said Lauren Berger, CEO and founder of CareerQueen

com and InternQueen.com and author of "Get It Together." "And sometimes we know what works for ourselves when it comes to self-care, but it's a matter of activating it

" Berger describes self-care as knowing your frustrations and finding small solutions to solve them, thereby nourishing yourself

(MORE: Expert tips to stay on track with your New Year's resolutions) "I know that packing the night before a trip makes me anxious," said Berger, sharing a personal example

"So it's saying to myself, 'I'm going to prepare and pack a week ahead.' That is a form of self-care

" With the expectation that self-care does not have to be elaborate or time-consuming, here are five ways to make it happen in your own life in 2019

1. Make a list of what makes you happy The first step in doing things that make you feel good is to identify what makes you happy

Make a list and keep it on hand, recommends Berger. "Use that list to have them and implement them when you need them," she said

"And, every once in a while, contributing new things to that list can really be helpful

" She added, "I keep a 'happy page' in my notebook and I continually write things down that make me happy –- went to fro-yo, put on a comfy sweater, watched reality TV

" 2. Set boundaries Setting boundaries in your personal and professional life is a critical part of self-care, according to Berger

"You can tell someone, 'Please don't text me before 9 a.m., between these hours I need to be with my child and you're not going to hear back from me,'" she said

"Push yourself out of your comfort zone to set boundaries." You can also set your own boundaries to know when you need self-care, for example, saying to yourself, "I'm overwhelmed, now is when I need to implement a self-care technique

" 3. Put down your phone There is likely only a small population of people who include being on their phone on the list of things that make them happy

Spending time on your phone not only uses up time you could be doing more life-fulfilling things, it can also lead to comparison and FOMO, the opposite of self-care

"We live in a world of Instagram where it's always about what someone else is doing, wearing, reading, talking to," said Berger

"It's important to pay attention to ourselves so we all need to find some time to separate from our phones, and particularly from social media

" Read this guide to learn how to successfully take breaks from your phone. 4. Start and end the day with something about you This is a simple idea so don't make it too complex

Simply do something when you wake up and before you go to sleep that makes you happy, whether it's reading or meditating or talking with a loved one

"Use the beginning and end of your day to really reflect on yourself and doing something that you enjoy, something that is not social media and you looking at other people's lives," said Berger

5. Center self-care around a meal You have to eat, so use those times of the day when you are fueling your body to also fuel your happiness

Sit down at a table instead of eating in a rush or on-the-go, take time to prepare your favorite foods or set a nice table setting, even if it's just for yourself

Those tiny moments can be all about you.

Auto news on Youtube Jan 1 2019

June 6, 1992

was the eve of my 21st birthday and my dear friend. Carrie Stacy who was like a sister to me

Was visiting me in Dublin where I lived

Carrie had just graduated from Smith College and she didn't have any plans for what came next in her life

And I had just finished my third year of college

As a visiting student at Trinity and I had learned right before Carrie arrived

That I would not be returning to Smith College

Like I thought I would

It's no fault of my own. It was beyond my control. I

Had a lot of anger and a lot of grief

But I also had no plans for what was going to come next. So Carrie and I were sort of

together

Staring into the abyss

Which in this case had taken the form of a map because we had decided that the question

Needing answered was not what would we do but where would we go? So there we sat

shoulder-to-shoulder

Crouched in the floor of my bedroom over as I recall a map of the United States. I

Believe that one of us put our arms over the parts where we didn't want to live

And the other closed her eyes and pointed and the universe answered

Albuquerque

We'll move to Albuquerque and get kittens that was the whole plan

Brilliant so a few months later. We arrived in Albuquerque

She from Portland, Oregon

Me from Birmingham, Alabama

I

Had on me

$700 and all the clothes I owned in the duffel bag

Also a boombox and cassettes because this was 1992

We couldn't find a place to live right away. So I believe

It was the Economy Inn, right Carrie? the Economy Inn on Route 66

Lucky for us. They had a weekly rate because we were there for a few months

and

In the next stroke of luck. I got a job right away because even with a weekly rate

$700 only goes so far

The job was at 7-Eleven. It was about two miles down

I had to be there at 5:40 in the morning, which meant leaving at 5:15. It was a long walk with no car

So I'm walking. I don't know if it would be the same today as it was then

Took me about a week to start carrying a switchblade

So had a lot of time to think

And what I'm thinking gripping my knife is that it's two hours later in

Massachusetts

And my classmates are still asleep

And when I embarked on my college career I intended to pursue medicine, Dr. Hahn, I

Mean I got to Smith and I fell in love with psychology and sociology. I was kind of a do-gooder

Smartypants

Naive for sure. So I'm not gonna lie. There was self-pity on that walk

Absolutely, but more than that. It was like this whiplash level of disorientation. I was like, what the hell?

Happened. I was going to be a doctor

Maybe a social worker. How is it that I am walking West?

Every morning down Route 66 gripping a knife

in the dark

But then like a beacon in the desert the lights of the convenience store and

The swish of the automatic doors and then magically I'm at work and

This particular franchise is

Nestled in the heart of

this little enclave of small weekly rate motels, which apparently is a thing in Albuquerque and

They served as the home base for this

Sort of community of intermittently homeless people that were all really kind of tightly knit though

It was kind of a rotating

group of people

Kind of bound together by struggle really they were all affected by

Pretty wrenching poverty and a lot of chronic illness and untreated mental illness

But I got to know them all really well their names and their relationships and their stories and

You know 7-Eleven we all know 7-Eleven. This was 7-Eleven

but better than 7-Eleven, we were also a gas station and we also sold hard liquor and

we we also had a deli I honest-to-god made sandwiches every day with loaves of Wonder Bread and

Tubs of industrially produced egg salad in between keeping the coffee carafe

Running and ringing up people's gas

I worked alone in the store every day, so

For the people whose motels were adjacent to the 7-Eleven and there were several of them. I

Was running the thing that was their gas station their a grocery store their post office because we sold stamps

their bank because we sold

Money orders their restaurant because hot dogs nachos deli sandwiches

The community center the liquor store all of it

You know and then also because we're on Route 66 there's this huge flow of commuter traffic and of course

I knew all those people by name too, because people are

Ridiculously regular in their commuting habits. It's a really interesting

piece to know and the most interesting and kind of terrifying part of every day was

the section between 6:45 and

7:15 a.m

Because liquor sales began at 7:00 a.m. Every day legally

So at about 6:45

Two lines would start to form in the store

Do you know where this is going? one at the back

where the where the beer cooler is with a chain around the the handle until I unlock it and

one at the front next to the counter because the hard liquor is up by me and

that would be okay except this is also when the commuter traffic really picks up and

So the store starts to get crowded and people in a hurry really don't like to be close to other people

especially when the people in line for liquor

For the most part are wearing dirty clothes and their pockets are heavy with nickels and dimes that they mostly got from panhandling

To buy their hooch and the people getting their coffee and their newspapers and wanting to pay for their gas or mostly in suits

suits there's a lot of tension and you know in retail, you know where the tension goes, right?

Ultimately, it's gonna explode and most most of the time when it explodes is the person behind the counter is going to catch it

And I know all of these people's names

none of these people are strangers to me and the thing that hits me over and over again, and it's a daily event some

Some man loses his temper every day, right?

Nine times out of ten. It's a guy in a suit red in the face

Shouting obscenities at me across the counter every day this happens

I noticed that a

Nice turn of events

And there are tons of witnesses. It's always a full store a

Nice turn of events. Is that usually when angry man leaves?

Somebody behind him

leans across the counter and looks me in the eye and says

Are you okay?

And you know what nine times out of ten that

Person has on dirty clothes and a lot of nickels and dimes in his pockets and that left a mark

And I'd be lying if I said that that didn't affect my worldview still today

Outside of 7-Eleven

my life and our lives continued much as you might imagine that they did. Carrie and I did move out of the Economy Inn. We

Found this really fantastic duplex on Princeton Street. We both thought it was pretty funny that we went from Smith College to Princeton Street

It was pistachio green and we got to tiny and adorable kittens and both of them ultimately lived almost

20 years old which was fantastic

We made friends. We threw parties we took fantastic care of each other

We drove each other crazy and the usual ways. I drove her crazy in unusual ways

I had this inability to take off my 7-Eleven smock when I get home every afternoon

It's kind of a running joke in our relationship even today

And all I can say about that when I look back on it, really?

Is that sometimes when grief and anger

Are too raw and too unexamined it makes you do really oddball things

So, I'm sorry Carrie that was kind of a weird one

But back at work, I was every morning and taking care of my customers there was John the Korean War vet that I saw

Stealing sandwiches my first week on the job. I just couldn't take it

I mean he fought a war for his country and he had no teeth and

I noticed it was always egg salad that he took because

He couldn't chew that much

So I would always make a couple of extra for him and I'd stick them between the Slurpee machine and the coffee carafe swear

I couldn't see when I was facing the register and when I saw I'm coming that's where I'd stick them and

By the time he'd made a lap and came around front. I

Turn around and make sure they were gone and they always were it was an unspoken agreement. I

Felt good about him taking what was meant for him

And there was Chelsey who would sneak into the bathroom to shoot up

and

Stay there for half a day, which wouldn't have been that big of a deal except

Her toddler daughter was always in the store when she did that

So I spent a lot of shifts with Chelsea's toddler daughter behind the counter with me

And I'd give her cups to stack

And it was okay because as long as her toddler was with me behind the counter I knew she was okay, and yes

I called DHS and I never saw them come but

While I was there, I knew she was okay, and it wasn't just me taking care of them

it really wasn't my second week at 7-Eleven Michael who was one of the guys who had

Pretty untreated mental illness

got right in my face and said

What'd you walk down central in the dark by yourself? That's not safe. You can't do that. And I said well

Okay, Michael better. I gotta get to work, right he said well, I'm gonna watch for you and I said, okay

Okay, you do that buddy

And you know what every freaking day that I worked there the whole time that I worked there

As soon as 7-Eleven came into view I could see Michael standing on the corner with a flashlight

The whole time I was there. I don't know what time he left his room. I never asked he was always there. He never failed

So I never did graduate the truth is I still hate that

But it occurred to me recently that

My tenure at 7-Eleven was eight months. I started in a September and I wrapped up in May and

Nobody could say it wasn't educational

And I was kind of working in my desired field by that time

And when I listen to people reflect on

The things that they cherish most about their college experiences. I hear some themes and the themes that I hear are

New experiences. Yeah, I got that and

Learning to take care of themselves

Check me out with a switchblade

and

Enduring friendships. I

Think we knocked it out of the park

Yeah, I'm good

For more infomation >> Joanna Agee, Higher Education - Duration: 13:50.

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Cognitive Accessibility: Design Choices and Music Education for Autism - Duration: 30:15.

>> So, I'm involved in a project called the Immersive Tools Project,

and I started working on this because there's a program at Berkeley,

which is in the Institute for Arts Education and special needs.

And that institute grew out of a long standing program that

was at the Boston Conservatory, which was connected to

their graduate program in music education and autism,

and then a couple of years ago the Boston Conservatory and

Berkeley College of Music merged, and so, one of the things,

and I've been at Berkeley for 17 years now.

And one of the things that we were very fortunate to have become part of Berkeley,

is that program and that concentration in autism.

So, when I was looking at projects to think about what could I do

to help people with virtual reality, extended reality, augmented reality,

what are some of the kinds of projects in sort of excess of games,

serious games, what are the kinds of applications that

could be of help for people in the world.

One of the areas I was really excited about was

this project and to work with some of the people in that graduate program.

And I have a personal angle involved in this as well,

because one of my children is on the autism spectrum and he also takes

music lessons in the program that these tools are addressed to,

although, he started taking lessons in the program

after I become involved in this project.

So, the program is on Saturday mornings, and there were students not necessarily college

students, but students from the Greater Boston community,

who come from pretty young, some of them are sort of four or five years

old, and there's some group like music-making,

classes and then they go all the way up to adults,

and so it's a chance for some of the graduates students to work with.

People have students for private lessons, and then also some of the graduates,

and then some of the faculty in that program as well, in that department.

So, all around it's been an amazing and very quick growing program,

where there have been many, many benefits beyond what people had originally

hoped of course as it often happens with special needs and arts,

where there are the possibilities for the specific population to have teachers and

an environment that can best help them blossom in terms of any talent or

interests that they have in that particular art,

in this case, different music instruments and now it's expanding because of just

widening out with the larger umbrella of this institute for arts education and special

needs.

It's widening out in a couple of directions, one to include dance and movement,

and then also to include other needs in addition to autism.

So, anxiety and visual impairment.

So, as this has blossomed out and become a larger more exciting community,

an exciting program, it's also gotten bigger.

Of course, right?

And we have multiple classes, multiple lessons, the conservatory building,

that the lessons and the programs take place in on Saturday morning is really exciting,

it becomes a place where parents are able to meet each other and talk to each other,

and the teachers are able to get to know each other and the children and the adults,

the young adults and some adults become just so much more

confident about their abilities in music, but then of course,

there are other abilities as well, in terms of the students with an autism spectrum.

They often become more communicative with their teachers and

that relationship is so important and becomes a real place of trust.

Well, let's leave it a trust for right now, and then we'll go into some other things as

well.

So, as we were approaching this project, we used the process of design thinking,

which made famous by the Stanford D School where the designers first empathize with,

and think about who is going to be using this thing that I'm making,

whether it's an object, or a game, or a tool, whatever it is, an interface.

I like this picture that's up here actually quite a bit,

because even though it's an older graphic from the D school,

I like the way the arrows go out and then they go in,

and then they go out again, and then they go around.

I think that's a really a nice image that they have.

And first to empathize for designers, and of course this is a really important part

of working on any kind of tool for ASD,

because it's the idea of creating something that

is going to be helpful for and useful for someone who,

if you are a neurotypical designer, for someone who is not understanding,

processing and experiencing the world in the same way that you are,

and most importantly and not in the same way that the whole world is set up for.

So, how did we get a group of people who aren't necessarily thinking about that

to think, well what does that mean,

then to define our tools, then to create lots of different ideas,

where really is still in the prototyping stage now,

and now we're starting to get feedback with bringing the tools to our students,

and also one of the things we realized during this process,

is that the teachers were as much group of users,

as the students that we were hoping that they'll be using them with,

which was sort of an interesting thing, you first start to think "Oh, these are,

the tools for the students the music students," and this is what they need.

This is what we think they need, this is what my research suggests that we

need, and I'll tell you a little bit more

about our team right here.

So, that's me and then Dr. Broder Bernard, who's been working in

music education and autism for a long time now,

and has just done such pioneering work.

She's such a like a generous, and gentle, and incredibly energetic person.

She started that music and autism Saturday morning lesson program by herself,

and believed in it didn't have a lot of resources first,

made it happen, and has watched it become this institute,

and there was a big opening Berkeley style, where we had a wonderful party,

and music, and a reception, and it was a wonderful moment for

her to have all of that kind of be there and be

recognized and blossom into this new level of a program with a lot of

good support, and then we have a student team.

So, we have three graduate students in the music education autism program,

and all three of them are public school teachers in Boston,

or right around Boston.

Music teachers, music educators during the day and then they go to

the graduate program at night, the master's program at night,

and then two of my students who are in the video games scoring minor at

Berkeley in the film scoring department in electronic production and design program,

and so, they're musicians, they're composers, they're sound designers,

and they're really two of my stars, and they've been terrific.

Both of them showed interests in accessibility, one of them had come up

with just different course with me, had chosen to do his project,

like a Unity project for, to try to simulate what it would be like to

be blind.

It was his idea that he did on his own thinking" Oh virtual reality

might be good for that, " and so, he was one

of the people I chose to be on this project.

And then Courtney as well was a very empathetic person

who is really interested in helping other people,

and really interested in working with children as well, excellent with

kids.

So, that's how we gathered our team together, and so I went in thinking that we would have

mostly social stories and knowing some of the difficulties that

my son had experienced with his music lessons that some of the things that if you make a

mistake, that's okay and keep going.

Which is hard for anybody at all, but can be particularly challenging

for this specific population.

Or that when we practice music, that we practice not always from the top,

right, from the very beginning,

but sometimes just a little piece in the middle and we'll just do

that part or will pick up from someplace quite towards the end.

And that can be challenging as well in a way that some people

approach things cognitively from the beginning and going all the

way through to the end every time.

And it's one thing if you're practicing on your own,

but once you're working with other musicians who are

used to working in a different way, that can be more challenging.

And so, those were some of the places I was interested in

where the social and the cognitive meet and can be barriers to where a musician with

ASD can run into some issues when they're trying

to be playing with ensembles in orchestras, in bands, some of those kinds of things which

is, when I think about where

I hope some of these tools can go, that's where I hope that these are the kinds

of skills I hope that will be able to help.

The music teachers were saying things like, let me see if we can get to,

oh, I'm going to just go back.

Music teachers were saying things like, ''Let's work on steady tempo,

let's work on dynamic.''

So, it was really interesting the way that we had and so we've been working on all

of these.

So, I think, so this next one I had to tell the people in the booth that this is a really

loud, has really loud noises and so I would like

you, yeah, please or I could just skip it, what

do you think?

Would you rather just skipped the thing with loud noises or

whatever or does anyone have any strong thoughts?

>> You should do it.

>> Should do it?

Okay.

Okay.

So, this is called too much information.

And has anyone seen any of these kind of videos?

Yeah, so the idea, this is an example of using 360 video.

They say VR and so, it's non-immersive VR and what we have been

working with is what level of immersion do we

want to use in our program.

And there are all kinds of reasons for that.

Some people don't like having a headset, right, put on them,

that that's uncomfortable, right, for various reasons.

Sometimes I don't like having a headset put on me,

but I found these little homemade.

Has anyone ever used any of these?

They're basically the lenses that are in Google Cardboard,

if you're familiar with Google Cardboard.

These are the lenses, so you can just, well,

I mean I know you can't see what I'm seeing but you just go like this and so,

there's nothing on your head and there's nothing blocking,

it's really easy to stop this, right?

And if you have on headphones, and good headphones, then you can have not the same kind of

immersive experience that you would if you put

on like HTC Vive or an Oculus Rift, but it's alright and

it's just so easy and it's easy than to carry these around because that's it.

And so I bring these to classes and hand them out,

collect it back again at the end.

And so, this has been a really good solution for me and all that,

like the Google Cardboard things are, is this in some cardboard?

I got these from- I'm from Boston, so we have Micro Center.

You can get them online, I got them.

I saw that they were on clearance so I bought all of them.

That's how I got my kit, my class kit.

But anyway, so I'm going to play this too much information here and I

think I'm going to play it.

I know, that's right.

Yes.

I'm not having the best luck with it.

Okay, I'm going to, oh, that was it, okay.

Well, I'm going to tell you where you can find it for yourself and describe it in a

few sentences.

It is about a boy who, we see things from

his first-person perspective and he has a soft toy,

an animal that he's holding.

And so you can look with your device and I'll show you one

here.

You can, you can look on your device and, I'm not connected to the Internet.

Okay so, you can look on your device's 360 video and

his mother is having a hard time working on, working to get money out of

the bank machine and he's looking around, he's at the mall,

he's looking around the mall and the noises are getting louder and louder for

him and the colors are getting brighter and

brighter and the lights or fluorescent lights are starting to flicker

and flash and he's really having a sense like

just too much, is too much information,

too much sensory input, and so the noises get bigger and

bigger and it puts you in his first-person perspective of what that's

like.

So, if you're neurotypical and or you don't have

any sensory processing experiences like that or you've never had an anxiety attack,

I mean there are all kinds of reasons why or ways in

which people might have had an experience that's similar to that,

that you would then have something that is like an experience to,

in order to increase empathy.

So, one of the things that we've been trying to think about is,

how can we help people who are neurotypical understand better what

it is like for the student or whomever the person who they know,

their friend, their child understand better what it's like for them?

And there's this idea of autism spectrum and when people hear spectrum,

right, we often think of this line

and I don't know if anybody has seen this from Theodora,

this wonderful kind of comic book style, graphic novels style from presentation

but explanation that she's made of what her experience is about,

what it's like to be, what the autism spectrum is being like and

she says that we think of it as high-functioning and low-

functioning and people are often, this person is high-functioning, low functioning.

But really, the spectrum looks more like this, and this is where I want to pivot more towards

talking about executive function and cognitive accessibility and cognitive issues.

Because as you can see up here, your autism can affect language,

motor skills, perception, executive function and sensory tolerances

but autism spectrum disorders are highly individualistic.

And one person will experience things in different ways,

in different contexts, so someone at home can be

very different than the way they are at school, than the way they are in the hallways at school,

than when they are in a private lesson, et cetera.

So, this is the graphic I really love, because it shows us how someone,

it's not that someone is high-functioning for everything, right?

If they were, then there wouldn't be the traits or the places where they had the disability,

where they had the issues with everyday life.

But in fact, that it says mixed profile, and that there are some traits

that can cause pronounced difficulties in everyday life,

and then, some traits that are very useful, or can be very useful in everyday life.

So, in terms of executive function, we're thinking about executive function

that we define that as a family of mental processes that are

associated with the functions of the prefrontal cortex.

So, specifically, it is the higher level cognitive processes

oriented towards inhibition, working memory, and shifting.

Being able to shift from one thought, one activity to another.

And so, we're talking about reactive inhibition and regulation of goal oriented achievement

behavior.

I make sure I'm covering everything I wanted to cover on here.

So, it is essential, of course, for physical and mental health,

academic achievement, and cognitive, social and psychological development.

So, when we were thinking about these.

Here, inhibition, working memory.

And by inhibition, the inhibition of impulses to do something else, right?

The inhibition of- So, difficulties we thought we could

address with immersive tools.

Whereas, I was talking about earlier, recital unfamiliarity or anxiety and or anxiety.

So, the students, the peculiarity of this situation that the students

in this autism lessons program

can't get into the space where they have their recitals,

before they go to have their recital, because of the way that room is booked on

Saturdays.

The only day that we- it seems like how can that be,

but that just is the way that it is.

So, when I heard that, I thought well, this is something that we can

use technology and media for, to preview.

And we can create VR first-person like the too much information

piece.

But this time, not too much information, like you don't have enough information,

we're going to give you enough information so that you can

preview as many times as you want, or your parents can help you

preview as many times as you want.

And this is another one of these kinds of tools that it would be useful for anybody.

I mean, there are so many issues around like performance and anxiety,

and stage fright for musicians of all kinds.

Having to go and play in different spaces that we've never been in

before.

We're also talking about some of those music specific kinds of things.

We came up with 360-degree video augmented reality

and virtual reality.

And then, we went into this whole idea of well, what's going to work?

I mean, who's going to want to put on the headset?

And then, we moved into a real question about if students are

in their private lessons with their teachers, and here's this connection with

their teachers that we recognize as being one

of the most important aspects about their developing communication skills,

about developing reciprocal relationships, about all kinds of things.

Here they are, they come in the first week, and they're not saying very much,

and then we check in weeks later, and I hear this from

the people who've worked in this program for years.

Check in weeks later and the student is like talking and laughing with their teacher,

and the parents are saying, "Look at my kid.

This is amazing, right?

This is what happens here."

So, we were saying, "Well, how are we going to do that?"

So, that's why we came up with using more augmented reality than virtual reality.

And so, we're moving towards iPads.

I can show you.

Here's the recital preview.

I only have a couple of minutes, so I'll just show you this.

This could be loud too.

So, in the booth, if you can check the sound.

This is not loud.

This is super silent.

So, here.

And then, this is a screenshot of

an Augmented Reality App about Dynamics.

So, the louder somebody plays the bigger that ball gets.

The idea is to get into a certain zone, and when it's not in the right zone,

it's a different color.

So, we've been working on that as well.

So, there's been research and this is only one of the studies that I've been looking

at, that talk about the relationship between

video games and cognitive skills, in general, in cognitive issues.

But in particular, around executive functioning because that's one of

the important ones for us with this autism project.

And this one, correlation between video game mechanics and

executive functions through EEG analysis.

In particular, focused on how specific game mechanics can

develop specific cognitive skills.

This chart, I'll post this on Twitter @loirl, so you can take a better look at it.

It talks about this specific game mechanics that can be used to enhance certain cognitive

processes.

So, this is a good, if you're looking to design,

if you're looking to develop for specific cognitive processes.

And so, I made a chart out of somebody else's research with EEG,

which is not the kind of thing I do at all.

But that resource, that study has all the explanations of what accurate

action, timely action, mimic sequence,

pattern learning, and logical puzzles are, and then which cognitive skills they were

better at, doing the pattern learning and

logical puzzles were particularly good for attention,

and then, other ones are better for memory.

So, that's like the shorthand version of if you want to come up with things

for increasing or working on cognitive skills, that's it.

And then, let's see if this will play.

Maybe now, there's no sound though.

A little bit of sound in the booth?

Okay.

So, I'm just going to.

Is anyone familiar with Autcraft, with AutismFather?

Anyone know?

Yes.

So, I'm just going to tell you a little bit about

this project.

I know my time is almost up, but to me, what is so hopeful and so

exciting about what we can do right now, with games, with virtual worlds,

I think Minecraft is the big breakout virtual world.

The Minecraft generation has expectations for what they will

find in an online platform that is exceptional, right?

They expect that they can mode it, that they can modify it.

They expect that they can be social in it.

They expect that they can access it easily on every platform.

They expect that they will be able to understand it in a range of modalities.

They expect they will be able to use it whether they can read or not.

They expect that they can use it in all of these different ways.

They expect they can hook it into other things like this cord,

and just use it in all of these ways.

They expect that it's theirs, right?

And that is what a virtual world is.

It's a place that is the people who are in it and who are making

it.

And so, get ready for Ready Player One.

That's coming out in just a few weeks.

And if you think people are talking about virtual reality now,

just wait because people are going to be talking about it.

And this is the time when everybody is going to be, not everybody,

but a lot of people and the culture is going to be focusing on what is VR?

What are virtual worlds?

What are we doing with this?

There's going to be, "It's dangerous.

Everyone's just going to sit in their room and pathologizing it."

And there's some serious concerns, of course, there always are.

But there also are so many amazing benefits.

What's Stuart Duncan did with Autcraft, as he noticed that

his child with autism wanted to play Minecraft, but there were people who are mean on these

servers, and there are people who are

mean on the servers, and in games.

So toxic, right?

So, he decided he was going to make his own server, and he did.

And he put up a little tiny notice saying, "Does anyone want beyond this nice server

for autism?"

That's not what he said, but something like that.

You can watch his TED talk.

Watch the whole thing.

I had a little excerpt but you should just watch and you can read the transcript.

It's fantastic.

And what he said is what the kids did in it was amazing.

There were kids who first, they were misspelling things,

but then they saw people spelling them correctly and they learned.

There were kids who parents were saying, "My kid doesn't talk,

but my kid is talking when he plays or she plays Autcraft."

They were emergent cognitive skills.

And that's the secret, I think, or not the secret,

but that's the key to how to think about accessibility, to think about how do we create accessibility,

so people can become as wonderful as they possibly can.

There's always potential.

There are always ways in which we can, in the title of my GDC talk later,

Dial Down, some of the inputs and the barriers, so that people can have greater access to

themselves.

We can change the environment, we can create filters for games,

we can create augmentation for what is going to be in

our actual world and in our virtual world, so that people can modify their situation,

so there is not too much information.

Thank you very much.